Making Peace With Chiron: God’s Highway

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When I first learned astrology, all those years ago, in that class in New York City, near Penn Station, from a real Occultist, a real Magician, I learned about Chiron. He included Chiron in the chart. Not everyone does.

Some folks do not include Chiron or do not consider him as important as the other outer planets or slow movers.

I wish I didn’t.

I wish we didn’t have a Chiron or need a Chiron.

I wish all of us were without wounds. But this is not “Moshiach time” as a lady I once worked for would probably say. In plain English, this isn’t heaven on earth. Yet.

We have our wounds and they need a representative(s). Chiron is one of these. He makes sure we are continually reminded of our vulnerability. Fragility. Humanity. It’s soooo painful, says Chiron. Can you soften when you are reminded of this instead of hardening your heart? I’ll try too.

Over the years I’ve met more than one astrologer who felt Chiron could NOT be healed, that this wound always opens and re-opens throughout our lives, depending on the transit and our life experiences. This has been my perspective too, and I always felt those “love and light” astrologers were full of shit.  You know the ones I mean? The ones who talk about how great Saturn and Pluto are as if their transits were theme park rides. Life is hard.

No one wants to be writhing in pain all the time and we’re not, for the most part, hopefully, ideally, AND YET those of us who are the explorers and seeker and deep divers, well, we live on a sharp edge. We get hurt. We trust. Many of us are empaths, artists, believers in the invisible.

Question: how to make peace with Chiron. That something will always hurt, has the potential to always hurt, and can get triggered pretty much any time. What do we do? Can we make peace? What do we do? So let’s say Chiron can’t be healed. And let’s say we are so wounded, so so so so wounded. And we try to work and love and be and live whatever life we have and… Chiron. Always Chiron.

“They say” we are supposed to take knowledge from our personal pain. That it’s a gift we can eventually give. Teach. That we can help others. I do believe this is true. Take our writhing and our sorrow and straighten up and strengthen and be a lighthouse for others, be a help, be a heart, life preserver.

Today I reached out to a friend. I was so bummed about something and she was there for me and she showed me good things when all I had to say was sorrowful things. She was a good mirror. She was good.

It was Chiron that was talking, my essential wound. My rejection. Not my filth. That’s Pluto. Not my punishment. That’s Saturn. But my Chiron. My essential wrongness. In all of us there is a place deep inside that just feels incapable of redemption, fixing, perfection, help. That’s Chiron’s curse and the irony is we really can hold others up, comfort others, even when we feel beyond that same help.

Maybe that’s the only way to make peace with Chiron. To give him voice. Speak about the wound. Speak loudly about the wound. Sing it. I’m not sure I ever do. Yes another way is to counsel others and be a good friend but I think there has to be this other way because for many of us giving counsel is not our path. But in this age of social media we can all speak out and take pain out of the dark and make it plain and SEEN. And heard.

Chiron says: I’m not good enough. I’m not X enough. The X is whatever House he’s in for you. That House becomes a black sun. X it out. Cross it out. Ignore it. Until BAM you are forced to confront your brokenness once again.

Advice: find a friend.
Advice: if you don’t have a friend find good counsel who will comfort you. Advice: if you don’t have a friend or counsel find GOD (Goddess, a candle, a Saint).

FIND IT. Because even if writhing in pain occasionally is inevitable, so is solace.

Have you made peace with Chiron? 

You, Too, Are A Centaur (Chiron Retrograde June 27th)

Happy Monday, star flowers.

You are now walking backwards –
Chiron goes retrograde today –

what of your healing story?
What needs to be healed still?
Is healing possible?
What does your body tell you?
What bell is ringing?

What did you forget and must retrieve from the house where Chiron transits
AND your natal Chiron house.

What is there? Questions, questions…
What is there?

I am sitting in the front room of the house as I type this to you –
I rarely sit here. I really haven’t yet.
It’s been almost a month in this palace and not yet have I just sat here with my thoughts and my music and you –

but Chiron goes retrograde and there is space to fill…

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When Chiron goes retrograde you do not become less of a beast.
You do not become less of a man (or woman).
You do not become less of a healer.
You do not become less healed.
When Chiron goes retrograde what happens? I’ll tell you what I think happens.

For you, too, are a centaur, even when Chiron goes retrograde.
You lose nothing.
You do not lose your bottom part.
You do not lose your top part.

You are still a beast. You remain a beast.
You are still a man. You remain a man.
Because you, too, are a centaur.

xx

New Moon In Virgo: ELIMINATE WITH JOY (Sept 5th)

One thing I did not mention in my video: the New Moon in Virgo and the Sun in Virgo opposing CHIRON, the Wounded Healer. I may address this in another video but for the moment, keep this in mind:

No one is out to get you. Really. It’s YOU.

You know how they say we “project our 7th House.” At least that’s the word on the street. The 7th House is other people and we have trouble owning what is OURS. We are cut off from what is OURS i.e. our “less than savory” qualities i.e. the qualities WE find less that savory (or sweet!).

Did you know we do this with ALL the HOUSES? Not just the 7th. My point here is that I want you to find this axis in your chart because you may have forgotten YOU, while you are busy blaming others. Find the Virgo Pisces axis because it is TIME TO HEAL the long-infected wounds :)

Chiron is not necessarily PAIN at this time. Chiron could be a healer come into your life. Chiron could be the healing itself. Chiron could be YOU. Chiron could be the past is gone, welcome to the future. Chiron could be your lover. Chiron is confronting you and what will you do about it? Will you hide? Will you hide in your EGO? In your Sun? In your Virgo-has-to-be-right-all-the-time fisticuffs? Or will you let it go (Pisces). You are the Sun here. You are the Chiron. You are the healer and the dis-ease.

Something To Look Forward To: Jupiter Trine Chiron

Sometimes I feel my entire motivation in this lifetime is to heal. Myself. And I try to help others along the way as best I can.

To heal the physical and emotional body because really they are the same thing.

I do not believe that illness or “conditions” are punishment or karma or payback.

But I do believe there is a metaphysical component to illness or conditions or even accidents (accident prone people) — and that healing becomes more possible when the spiritual/metaphysical component is investigated to get to the bigger picture. That a pain in your body is not just a pain in your body. It’s a soul pain too. It may or may not reach back towards previous lifetimes but for sure it reaches back towards this lifetime, to years past, to trauma.

And you know when you’ve hit on something i.e. when you read a passage in a book or hear a teacher or speaker or doctor and you know, you just know, they are setting it in motion for you, helping you unlock the mystery of your “problem.”

Chiron in your chart is one such teacher, is your healing journey: how you help others, how you have always helped others, and how you continually strive to get well.

“Don’t work on your weak points. Embrace them.” says Deepak Chopra. Imagine that. The part of your body or your mind or your spirit that you feel is… failing you. Embrace it instead of rejecting it. I have a feeling that unless you consciously do this that you are subtly and not so subtly rejecting yourself all the time. Use your imaginative forces (as Edgar Cayce said) to imagine love, breathe into those shut tight spaces in your emotional/physical body. But first you must find out where they are…

Transiting Chiron is in Pisces somewhere in your chart, making his presence known. He wants you to get well. He wants you to want to get well.

And consider this: Jupiter in Cancer will trine Chiron. Jupiter will trine Neptune and Saturn too this summer but don’t forget Chiron.

Yeah, you know what I’m going to say next: BIG HEALING on a cosmic level but someplace very particular in YOUR chart.

Love, MP

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Chiron Dogs

"full moon eclipse in sagittarius" Today I was talking to someone who adopts “rescue-dogs” and she was mentioning how they still get triggered (responding to perceived danger/threat) even years later.

Certain physical gestures (probably tones of voice too) can bring them back, psychologically, to the hard times.

They’re wounded and I thought to myself “Chiron dogs.” We’re all Chiron dogs. We’ve all got Chiron somewhere. We all get triggered.

I was writing about this the other day: that if Chiron in the chart shows where you canNOT be completely healed, then what?

I forget who I was reading. Howard Sasportas I think — that you CAN heal the Saturn pains in your chart. But with Chiron? The gift that keeps on giving ;)

What is the solution? Love? Is that always the solution? Patience? Ask yourself: what does my such and such (insert personal chart details here) Chiron need to feel safe? How do you stop the triggers from… not triggering you, but… stop them from doing damage to your heart and self-esteem.

That person you think is hurting you may not really be intentionally hurting you but somehow, someway, reminding you of an old pain. When you feel hurt, leap to unpack it, rather than leap to return the hurt. Now THAT is one way to work with Chiron. Not easy to leap out of Chiron-mind but worthwhile.

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Someone hurt my feelings today but I can choose. I can choose whether to have this person in my life and if so what role they will play. I can choose whether their traits are too… whatever... for me. You do make choices, don’t you? About what you allow in your life?

I get hurt in intimate situations. I just do. Chiron in the 8th House. Get close to me and you will not be rewarded with a cookie. You’ll get other stuff but not so many cookies.

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Transiting Chiron is in Pisces. Transiting Neptune is in Pisces. These fellows are in the early degrees of Pisces. Where they are traveling in your chart will be where you feel, at times, vulnerable and, at times, confused. Mystical. Mystified. And ouch ouch ouch it hurts. Touch at your own risk. You may get bit.

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What does a dog need? Structure, right? Saturn. Exercise. Mars. And love from others and I want to call this love from others, the ability to reliably love, as a Sun issue, not a Venus issue (Venus is usually identified as the “love planet.”)

So try this at home, folks, with your Chiron. Give him something to do. Give him a routine. Food, shelter, hugs. Definitely hug your Chiron dogs. Yeah, you could have more than one, a whole litter maybe…

Revisit your natal Chiron to find out what you should be doing.

Love, MP

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The Stars Today: Neptune, Mercury, And Chiron In Pisces

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Neptune entering Pisces enters Chiron so to speak, enters the realm of Chiron, because Neptune entering Pisces enters conjunct Chiron.

Neptune at Zero and Chiron at 4 degrees Pisces. And Mercury moves fast but is currently almost at ONE degree Pisces.

This could be a favorable day to... talk about (Mercury) what’s wrong (Chiron) in a Neptunian way. Use a song. Send a postcard with invisible ink. You don’t need to be crystal clear. You can’t be crystal clear on a day like this. You can allude. You can leak. You can hide. And you may be wondering: is THIS communication? Yes but it’s communication without answers or expectations. It’s the High Priestess in a bathing cap drifting down the river of the day: knowing and not knowing the unknowable knowns of know-ness.

;)

And with Venus square Pluto today too, the stream, the swim, is what I recommend. Be gentle (stellium in Pisces) rather than willful (Pluto) in your love and relationships. Hide if you must. Seek if you must. Avoid power-grabs. Float. Be. Hold your breath. Dunk your head. But don’t drown. You will live another day.

How are you spending the day?

xo

Kim Kardashian, Chiron, And You

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I’m surprised how controversial it was of me to post a picture of Kim Kardashian (and yes that is her chart on the left here) on my New Moon in Pisces post. As if I were a Rabbi eating pork fried rice. As if I’d done something taboo or profane.  And perhaps it was/is profane — or just against the grain of American sensibility (and I am a patriot, by the way) to post a picture of a celebrity that is NOT about gossip and not about putting them down! Imagine that!!!

I’ve had people write to me (not regular readers) to tell me “she’s over.” Whatever the hell that means. I don’t know what it means. I don’t care. I like her and I like to match up celebrities with transits. Used to do it a lot more.

In other news, with all my Pisces focus of late, I realized last night that I forgot to include our favorite wounded healer, Chiron, in the mix! Well, consider Chiron there too ;) because he is there, in the early degrees of Pisces and casting a bit of a pall on the whole deal and by pall I mean there is more of a risk of drinking too much because of the pain. So if that’s what you run to during these Pisces days, well, try not to. The desire to escape will be high (no pun intended).

And speaking of Ms. Kardashian, she has transiting (retrograde) Saturn on her natal Sun right now. Even the rich and famous are not spared the lessons of Saturn (will she become the AUTHORity of her life?) and this is a 10th/11th House transit for her, pulling in the 5th House of love. Her relationship perhaps should have stayed a 5th House matter rather than moving it to the 7th.

And with Mercury in Scorpio? This girl is no fool. Make no mistake she can cut through the bullshit (when she allows herself to) and that includes the bullshit of her profession and yeah when I see Mercury and Uranus together, activating her 11th and 12th? This is definitely someone is capable of *more* than looking pretty but she is a Libra :) and I do not judge the desire to look pretty. Just saying underneath the surface of Sagittarius Rising good looks, there’s a whole human being.

Is she confused at times? No doubt. 1st house Neptune says she needs to be careful where (and in who) she puts her trust but the spiritual nature is quite intense should she choose to embody it.

This is the chart of an old soul and the chart of a happy person who works hard: Venus in Virgo, that packed 10th House. Moon opposing 10th House Jupiter is her inner mutable cheerleader and Saturn is conjunct Jupiter, hovering.

And her Chiron? Where’s her pain? In Taurus, a Venus ruled sign. Pain and conflict from beauty and love and the MATERIAL.  AND in the 5th! Leo’s natural house! “Pain from being me.” This person can… go pick up milk from the store and someone will find fault DESPITE her fame and fortune.  And yet North Node in Leo. It’s like she can’t win despite winning. She can use her Mercury in Scorpio to think this through and truly know it and then her life will change. Her True Life will come into being. It’s an inner process and with Sagittarius Rising? She will search until she finds it. Or gets distracted ;)

Her Chiron opposes Mercury, by the way. This is someone who could write, and powerfully, and tell her story. You think she doesn’t have a story to tell? Think again!

xo

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How Many Steps ‘Til Pisces?

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Virgo is nervous until Virgo knows what lies ahead, step by step. The rules, the guidebook. Where the fuck is it? Virgo NEEDS Pisces energy to keep it flowing. Virgo needs Gemini to keep it light. Virgo needs Sagittarius to keep it happy :)

You can do this kind of exercise with all the signs. Look to what squares and opposes and you’ll find clues. I’ve written about this before, but was thinking about it this morning. I’ve been sick, real sick actually (for me). Total rest mode, haven’t blogged for a couple days. But I woke up this morning thinking: Virgo cannot rest, will not rest, until s/he knows the steps and that this is an impossible way to live because it cuts off… possibility. It often cuts off positivity.

Now, I am not a Virgo Sun. My perspective is from a 1st House Virgo Moon conjunct Pluto. Pluto intensifies what it touches so I become XTREME Virgo, and yet it’s different than the energy of Virgo Sun and different even from the energy of the Virgo Moon without Pluto. We must always examine each and every aspect and placement as though examining it for the first time. Examination? Very Moon Pluto ;)

So if you are Virgo Sun or Virgo Moon or Virgo South Node or Virgo Rising or if you are just wound up too damn tight, much of the time, then these words are also for you: you don’t need to know what direction to go in before taking a step. And sometimes a hop in place is enough.

But think of your sign: Leo? What do you need to learn from Aquarius? Noticing others more? Cancer, what do you need to learn from Capricorn? Follow-through even if you don’t feel like it. Taurus? Taurus must rise above the material and become the highest vibration of Scorpio. Scorpio shares. And Aries. Of course Aries learns cooperation from Libra. And so on. And in any direction. All around the wheel. We find our strengths, our weaknesses.

Virgo, more than any other sign, is a victim of mind. Mercury-ruled. Gemini is too but Gemini flies, is light. Virgo, earthly, gets trapped by her own thinking. She cannot solve her problems by thinking through them. She must discern BUT THEN  there is another process.

The sky is clear of Virgo now. Only Chiron is in Pisces, and retrograde at that. If you are an early degree Virgo you probably have been feeling this opposition profoundly. Not as an attack, per se, but as a steady painful confusion.

But as I wrote a couple of days ago, you can stop struggling. You can rest like an animal in the forest. Be the horse: move your body. Be the fish: flow. Be human (twins): enter your life. These are not contradictions. Stopping the struggling means… well… you know the 8 of Swords card in Tarot? That’s what I’m talking about. UNTIE YOURSELF. By whatever means necessary.

What do you need to learn from the signs that oppose or square you?

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