I know some of my peeps are liking the memoir-ish posts so here’s Part Three. Part One is here. Part Two is here. *** When we last left our heroine she was leaving her religion, dating East Indian men with dominant tendencies, and generally dazed and confused. Want to know […]
north node in the 6th house
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*+-The smell of coffee first thing in the morning. I stick my nose in the bag. I know coffee snobs grind their own but I’m not a coffee snob. Although I do know what’s good so I went to the best place, got a ceramic filter (and paper filters), and a […]
*+-This is another subway story. I was on the train, heading to an errand and was reading a book called (and about) Meditation and Kabbalah by a traditional (i.e.. Orthodox) Jewish rabbi who has since passed on and oh how I love his books. Wonderful translations. Clear vision. Lately I’ve […]
*+-I went for a walk in the old neighborhood and I got a slice of pizza and I heard the words “Forgive me” in my head. And in that moment I finally understood that famous William Carlos Williams poem, “This Is Just To Say.” See, I try to curtail my […]
*+-It’s a second. A split second. That feeling of fate. And I was just writing on Facebook, I have to slow down to feel it. I can’t be rushing around or feeling anxious or worried about anything. There has to be a certain degree of calm but doesn’t even need […]
*+-I love that people are writing to me, wanting to hear about their North Node. I love love love working with the Nodes and I can’t even tell you why I got so attached to them but attached to them I am 🙂 Perhaps because I recognized the truth of […]
*+-It’s not my birthday yet. In a couple days. I get introspective on my birthday. Reflective. I may even — gasp — brood! I’ll try not to this year. The up-side is that I may blog more 🙂 And I approach this day with a stark feeling. I’m still here, […]
*+-There are times when you just… throw up your hands. This figure of speech meaning: I don’t know. I don’t know the answer. I don’t know the meaning. I don’t know why. Who the hell am I? What is my purpose? Why am I here? Why am I alone? Why […]
*+-I am sooo thrilled that people liked the previous post. It got to be so long that I was thinking: who the hell is gonna read this? But some lovely comments showed up so thank you 🙂 Work and money have always been obsessions for me because they were so […]
*+-Is your work who you are? Funny, this morning I had another topic in mind to write about. I was going to write about how I got up this morning and meditated, first thing. Right after I made the bed. How I listened to the birds. So many birds and […]
*+-Afflictions, anxiety, asylums. Large animals… Ah the 12th House! 12th House people will hurt themselves until they know/learn better. I’ve got my Venus here. Suicide, suffering, sorrow… And Black Moon Lillith. Solitude, sleep, slavery… And South Node. Self-injury, self-undoing, self-examination… And Vesta conjunct my ascendent so go ahead count her in […]
*+-I have my North Node in the 6th House. Conjunct my descendent but yes on the 6th House side and turning points in my life have all involved my WORK. Climbing out of a lifetime of depression – yes, a lifetime – involved finding my Right Work. It’s a Buddhist […]
*+-Ever since Whitney Houston died, I’ve been meaning to write about, well, Otis Redding. My love for Otis Redding. I’m a white girl and black music has meant the world to me my whole life. My grandfather played the trumpet. Jazz was his life. When I was a kid and […]
*+-Edgar Cayce said thoughts are things. He also said Mind is the builder. So not only what you say but what you THINK affects you, of course. And others. New Agey people often talk about “psychic attacks” and “emotional vampires” and stuff like this and I never felt it so […]
*+-Sometimes what happens is… it’s better not to think about it. You just slip on your new life like a pair of old (or new) slippers. Ease. Easy. My Pisces North Node is teaching me this lesson. I’m disappearing into my new life as if my old one… well… it’s […]
*+-Sometimes you just need to cry. No matter where you are or what’s going on or how ridiculous you seem/look. Maybe it’s a Cancer thing. Cancer can cry anytime anywhere, although they may try to hide it behind dark sunglasses. Yesterday was one of those days for me. I was […]
*+-My boyfriend stopped talking to me the other day. And there was some build-up. It wasn’t completely out of the blue. We had, shall we say, opposing um needs. And yet. It’s the thing I haven’t been blogging about. Thinking about. Moping about. But not really writing about. Well, dear […]
*+-Your life is right now: whatever it is, whatever is there. It’s not something that is going to happen but now. Present moment. This kind of talk feels like Saturn to me: work, reality, time… as opposed to Neptune who is our fantasy, ideal, like the girl you’re too scared […]
*+-It is nighttime in the Big City… Are you ever so busy that you don’t have time to process? Can you imagine how this is for a Virgo-type, like me? It’s like being a Sagittarius who can’t find the party or a Cancer who refuses to eat or a Capricorn […]
*+- Little things make me happy. For example, my roommate buys the cheapest hand soap possible. We have dispensers in both the kitchen and the bathroom and she buys a huge jug of the shit and refills. She’s a quadruple Taurus and cares about the earth. What bugs me though […]
*+-I hate being in a body. I hate it. And I don’t think I’ll ever make peace with it. That’s today’s mood anyway 😉 And I know it’s not PC to say so. We’re suppose to luuuuuuuv our bodies, love ourselves, especially as women, find self acceptance and bash that […]
*+-Sometimes I look at my chart and feel a sense of mystery. And the mystery says WTF. Not just wondering, as I sometimes too, if my birthtime is wrong but… WTF. The Big WTF. The Cosmic WTF. The Why Am I Here WTF. If we are here, if we are […]
*+-Been using this metaphor all morning: untangle the knots. Or maybe it started last night. Or last weekend actually. I had some work to do and my mind felt knotty, knotted. I had a headache and I wondered if it was a third-eye thing since some of it was psychic […]
*+-Happiness snuck up on me today, and I can genuinely say for the first time (ever?) that I am happy, which is different than fulfillment, artistic fulfillment for example. For a few years now, I’ve been writing plays and had a bunch of short plays produced and worked with directors […]