*+-Many interesting comments to my Saturn in Scorpio posts and I’m not fully awake yet 🙂 so I’ll have to tend to the comments later today when my head is back on. Was up in the middle of the night with a blog idea and decided to go back to […]
Venus in the 12th
*+-I have an extreme longing for God. Or whatever you want to call IT. I’m Jewish but when I was a kid I bemoaned the fact that Jews didn’t have convents (there’s a joke in there somewhere). I didn’t consider converting but began to collect rosaries. Oy. What did my […]
*+-So I’ve decided on my Full Moon In Scorpio “intention.” I’m going to remove my Venus in LEO from my 12th House. Pluto, Scorpio’s co-ruler, rules surgery. It may take sleight of hand. Or the latest technology. Or a jackhammer. Or a rifle. It may take the help of a […]
*+-The Moon is in Capricorn as I write this… And lately I wake up in the morning and I think of Miami. Today’s letter is the letter M… 😉 Miami is synonomous with Mother for me and I have to blog here and release my thoughts and memories and feelings […]
*+-I feel like I struck a nerve yesterday in the post I wrote… and the comment I made about women without children. Now the confrontation I had yesterday, the opposition I had, was with a Saturn-figure: a traditional, conservative man, a father, a father-figure, a good father. With a big […]
*+-I sent an email to a friend this evening: I fall in love with my own love. Â And I project this onto the other. I fantasize without realizing it. So then when I do actually see them? Reality. The veil drops. Wait. It’s not that I fall in love […]
*+-Men seem to like me in theory.  At a distance.  And I suppose I choose these types as well.  We choose each other.  He’s afraid to get close.  I can’t do anything but. Breaking out of the 12th House can take a lifetime(s). You think you escaped but then you realize […]
*+-So I gotta write about Venus square Neptune which is happening IN THE SKY today which means my own natal Venus square Neptune is getting triggered. Sigh. Sighing is VERY Venus square Neptune. I also have Venus in the 12th house. I also have Neptune ruling my descendent. Â It’s a […]
*+-A short letter to transiting Saturn sextiling my natal Venus in the 12th House Dear Saturn– There comes a time when Venus in the 12th must say: yearning is not good enough. I want to HAVE. Love, Me. Venus in the 12th person, Venus square Neptune person: have you gotten […]
*+-I had a proper Sukkot this evening. Even put on a dress. And my boots. Ate with friends. Yeah, I even lit candles. I made my friends talk to me about God’s enveloping light. It was that kinda night. And I couldn’t stop thinking about sex the whole time. What […]
*+-Joanna’s comment on my Detatch/Attach blog post got me thinking. And writing. Hello again 🙂 That when I look back on… men that I loved or thought I loved and how heartwrenchingheartaching it was at the time when the relationships were dying, that… now I can’t feel those feelings, and […]
*+-People with Venus in the 12th House wish they didn’t have bodies. They want to transcend them. That there’s something more, better, higher. But the body is the way IN to the soul. Like sex. The penetrative act is an entering of the body and it leads to the creation […]
*+-Sometimes I do everything wrong. On second though, that’s probably not true. Cancerians tend to have a guilt complex. Well, Cancer Sun square Chiron has a guilt complex. And the huge helping of Virgo doesn’t hurt either in terms of the interminable “not good enough.” Â And the Venus in the […]
*+-Throughout Virgo Season, I am probably going to keep posting pictures of Keith Richards, Moon in Virgo. He was a huge childhood crush for me and when I look for his image on-line? I see pictures from magazines that I remember seeing when I was 12, 13, and so in […]
*+-This is a continuation of the previous post and inspired by some of the reader comments. Astrologers pretty much say that the 12th House is debilitated, the dustbin of the zodiac, and I respect history, I respect the astrologers. My Cancer Sun sextiles my Saturn in Taurus: respect, protect, the […]
*+-I wasn’t going to blog this morning (no time), but I then I tweeted something and realized I wanted to say more. About the elusive 12th House Venus which isn’t really elusive at all because when you meet these folks you can feel it. At least, I can feel it. […]
*+-Did you know that Larry David has his Sun in Cancer? Last night I couldn’t blog (computer problems), and I missed it, but the truth is that it was good to have a day off. No blogging, no tweeting, no hypocondriacal googling, no Curb Your Enthusiasm. So now I’m back and ready […]
*+-Love makes me feel weak. And I’m not saying this is good or bad. Yet. I guess it’s neither. Or either. I just know it makes me feel weak. Vulnerable? That too. Like a fight with my boyfriend renders me dumb, voiceless. Because I realize in those moments after the […]
*+-Yes, I did paraphrase a famous poem in the title of this blog post, but the line occured to me as I was looking for another “jail” metaphor to describe how it feels to be Venus in the 12th House. I never felt the way Dylan Thomas describes in the […]
*+-I lose myself in love. Completely. I’m also aware that I have other Neptune problems and my Venus in Pisces in the 12th House only makes it worse. Help! I’m drowning! Dear Drowning: did you ever try floating instead? I feel your pain, I really do. I have Pisces on […]
*+-Yesterday I wrote about needing to seek peace with my body. I’m still in that space. Food and sleep are affected. Energy level. Mental energy. So I look to the transits for clues. And then I look away. Sometimes, yes, sometimes, you have to put down the chart and… think […]
*+-Look at the float of her hair. The adoration in his posture. I don’t know what she’s looking at… I don’t want to know. I just like it. Sensitivity to art and music is considered Venus’ domain. Neptune too. And Venus Neptune together, in any aspect. The harder aspects can […]
*+-There’s a Sam Shepard play that I love called Fool for Love. The movie version ain’t half bad either, with Shepard, a youngish Kim Basinger (always underrated), and Harry Dean Stanton. I know I know, purists probably hate the thing, but it was my early introduction to Shepard’s work, from […]
*+-Ever meet someone with a chart like yours? Even a few placements? And it’s like looking in a mirror? I had this experience yesterday. It was unplanned but I got a chance to visit someone’s chart and my eyes went around the wheel and aha! He had Venus in Pisces […]