The Moon is in Virgo tonight and Virgo is on my mind because I have toomuchVirgo in my chart (including Moon and Pluto in Virgo in my 1st House) and I tend to want to fix first and listen later… (Do I? Or is that just the usual Virgo self-criticism?)
A story: the other night my Scorpio buddy texts me with some important news and before I can say “I will save you!” I’m right there with my cape and my super powers, not really supporting but… *trying* to support. There is a difference.
Did I mean well? I did. (Did I? Virgo South Node = self doubt). But I had an agenda. I wanted to say THAT ONE THING that would
help him bind him to me.
And then he stung me with his Mercury in Scorpio stinger: “You’re not helping.” (Although you usually do, he added.)
And I knew. I knew he was right. And then I got all Cancerian wounded and said OKAY BYE (a trick I learned from a Cancer Moon!) because in that moment I could not yet face that I was being inauthentic. I wasn’t coming from the high side of Cancer. I was coming from the “how can I make myself indispensable to you” side of Cancer i.e. crabshit.
Later on the phone, he gently chastises me, as only a Scorpio can, for pretending to run off. We’re friends he says. Don’t do that. And later, after I’ve figured this all out, processed it through my Virgo Moon mood/mind processor, I realize it fully, my aha moment, and I message him, telling him. You know what? I just didn’t know what to say.
Finally. The Truth.
And that’s fine, he says. You’re right, I said.
🙂 he says
To be continued…