So I’m back in therapy.
Today was my second session and our discussion was VERY Venus and it made me think about how Venus, now in Capricorn, will go retrograde and how Mars in Libra’s retrograde will find all of us… introspective. Turning inwards. IF WE DARE. Defining what we value. Fighting(Mars) for what we value. Fighting for ourselves. Fighting for our relationships. Or will we just give up and give in? Not if we know what we want, what we hope to INCREASE. Courage for your journey!
This woman is brilliant, a Sagittarius (I had to ask) and I’ve worked with her before. So many years since then. And today I stopped to ponder it – the years. And how I sought her out PRECISELY because “conventional” help or clinics couldn’t help me. Every time I tried, it didn’t work, for one reason or another. And so I googled her and found her and I asked my husband about the timing and he told me it matched up with my last Saturn opposition, which is in orb for me now. Saturn in Scorpio vs Saturn in Taurus. Third House to 9th House. The daily mind, the higher mind. The Cage vs perspective.
You are not your anxiety she told me. Anxiety “hangs on you” but it’s not you. She said many other sharp sharp things and I don’t mean sharp as in “mean” but sharp as in: I see you, I hear you, why don’t you try this, how does this sound. So many therapists are afraid to speak. Know what I mean? Too much of a certain kind of training has neutered them I think, but not this gal. As if anyone could shut up a Sagittarius 😉
I’m telling this long story because I want you to think what you value. If you don’t know what you value, it becomes impossible to make decisions. What are they based on then? Chaos? Fear? The flip-flop mind? Your anxiety? Your rage?
So take these transits in hand. Venus retrograde is the shorter one. Mars in Libra retrograde the longer one. Venture inwards. Acquire for yourself a notebook. And make a list of your priorities. Make a tree. Many trees. I just did a little one. What you want. What you have. What you know for sure. Branches, roots. You are worth it. What is worth fighting for. What is worth releasing. You are worth it. Define it all. Without shame. You are worth it. Just write it down. And if you don’t know yet, that’s okay too.
Something else she said to me today: if something lessens, then there is room for something else. What gets bigger?
What do you value?
Love, MP
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Oh, and I may need actual therapy. My shrink is a Capricorn and she is Russian, the good thing about her is she is not afraid to tell me her opinion, namely I’m not crazy, just spoiled and get it together when there’s a job and a time to get it done in.
I’ve thought about this during Saturn in Libra, it was mental, it was inward, and not fun because I was looking for a relationship at the time.
I can say from time tested stuff I value cuddles, food, validating words, understanding, them feeling my pain, men treating me like they care about me, being on my team, and them being there for me emotionally when I’m freaking out. Often the treating me like they care are crumbs from how little I respect myself, I don’t get much so I pretend the boyfriendy things that happen are boyfriendy things. Emotional understanding and validation I value from other people more than anything, even if it’s wrong to feed me the words I want. When my parents and my friend and some people were there for me unquestioningly when I had a freak out. I value words and emotional conversation. Someone not shrinking from my yucky sides, even the physically yucky ones, but accepting me or telling me “don’t worry hon, we all do that.” Or something. I value my Pisces Moon friend’s gentle sensitivity and feeling, even if he doesn’t always give me what I need and strive to take from everyone. Some stuff I can say it really means a lot for me to get from people. I’m a hungry, needy validation sponge, validation can be cheap, but emotional calm and understanding, being the bottom to whatever I feel, that’s really precious.
My emotions and filial piety are truncated, I tried to echo what other people valued in Saturn in Libra, I just have substantial emotional holes and can’t give people what I value all the time. One thing I do for people is tell them it’s ok to be introverted, maximize their strengths, and not criticize them without them asking for it… though sometimes I fail. I’m also not great with gratitude, this is mostly because I’ve been given a lot, more than I can hope to give. More than I can imagine doing for someone and my imagination is very narrow in this regard, but actually farmer’s market vegetables and healthy food make me a lot more grateful and present.
Sorry I didn’t answer the question…I value
deep connections with loved ones
my animals
my health (esp mental health)
my privacy
my safety
my autonomy
my individual soul
nature
clean water
creative inspiration
boundaries
people who have boundaries
being respected & having my boundaries respected
Wow that picture is absolute heaven to me!! I’m happy for you that you’re back in therapy. Your therapist sounds great. I miss mine…I think he retired but am not sure. He told me that every psychologist retires at least twice and sometimes 3 or 4 times;)
I loved therapy…seriously…especially with someone with a gift. THE gift. Someone with a sharp mind needs a therapist equally as sharp… I have Mercury/Chiron/IC trine my Capricorn Moon…plus Saturn/8th aspecting all of it. I am going to go deep. With a professional (Capricorn Moon + Saturn! No amateurs need apply, lmao).
Lots of love to you. You deserve the best, esp as you always give US your best. x
I was actually thinking about therapy myself, aside from the obvious reasons for doing so, I will have Mars in my 12th house for eight months, it seems.
I had wanted therapy almost three years ago, but I couldn’t afford it. I had put it off for years, and just wanted to talk to someone who might be able to help me.
I value my family. Even with everything that has happened, they are my life, and I love them. I value my friends, and after an encounter in which someone took me the wrong way on Saturday night, and shamed the hell out of me – or tried to – I was reminded that I am seen, and loved, by friends that I’ve had for years. It turned out to be a good thing, so I’m grateful for it.
Venus is currently in my 3rd house, so it fits, too. I value myself enough again now, to at least look for help, and to trust the friends that I have, rather than shutting myself away from them, as well. It was a reminder to be more discerning with whom I spend time with, and feels like a weight has been lifted.