I was reading an awesome astrology book on the subway and it was interesting because my experience of transiting Saturn through my 2nd House is not what the “textbooks” describe.
Or it’s that I took the Saturn challenge. Learned from my mistakes. Especially learned from Saturn in Cancer some years ago, conjunct my stellium there. Not that I ever considered the choices I made as mistakes but… my younger self.
I remember feeling quite a bit of fear at first. Things ended but I truly began something too. This blog. It is a die trying transit for me. Aliza makes a living. Finally. After all these years of Neptune in my 6th House which is a transit I probably should analyze now.
You really have to pick your battles in this life. There were some things I tried for years and it was closed door after closed door. Things that I believed were my destiny. But when I paid closer attention to some things in my chart and watched for signs and listened for signs and paid attention to the transits and stayed in the light, I changed my life.
So I let one battle go and there’s another one I’m working on…
My astrology teacher would tell us that if you spent, say, the first half of your life totally career focused and ignoring your personal life, then your personal life was going to be your focus for the second half. You would have to reckon with what you pushed underground. Sounds like a Pluto transit to me…
And I would say the first half of my life I was solely focused on creativity, my writing, trying to get somewhere with it. Got my M.F.A.
And also focused on healing i.e. mental health — my depression, anxiety, PTSD, the horrors of… not being anywhere near what I hoped my destiny was or who I thought I was or was going to be. Did this life have no purpose at all?
My relationships weren’t about partnering. I don’t know what they were about except… confusion and the search for structure.
It’s funny. Well, not funny but… I’ve been lamenting that I always lose my teachers. Natal Saturn in my 9th House. Saturn is many things and loss is one of them. Lost parents, lost teachers, lost elders. I lost and I lost and I lost until I became the elder.
Okay! Enough ruminating for one night! The Sun is in Aries! Let’s MOVE! At least to the kitchen and make some dinner 🙂
Do your experiences match what the books say?
xo
3 thoughts on “Transiting Saturn Through My 2nd House And The End Of Depression”
So true about family. They fear for you but sometimes don’t understand that what you need is less their expressions of concern and worry, but consistent encouragement; that this is the most useful outlet for their concern in so far as how it supports you. Simple but crucial 🙂
What you say, above, really resonates with me. Like you, I spent years focused on creative, artistic endeavors- only, in my case, the take-away was that I’m not a very artistic person. In realtionships, too, I was always searching for something, something I couldn’t name, and now seems to me to have another person’s desire, dream. My Saturn return has been deeply unpleasant, but not in any way that I find strange- just a lot of being forced to give things up, or having things give me up. Saturn going into Scorpio, and my second house, doesn’t scare me; I’ve been thinking about the things that you’ve said about your struggle with depression, and it gives me some sense of positive anticipation.
I wouldn’t talk about this stuff or encourage others if it wasn’t part of my story. I’m 41.
From age 25 to around…. 40 or so were really hard– not that I thought of it as monolithic but I feel the shift now very much. end of a cycle feeling. Saturn cycle for sure even tho last time saturn was in libra i was 12….
I feel “if I can make it better, anyone can” — because i know those dark places, because I was that far down in all the areas of life – except spiritually maybe. I was working on spiritual stuff and my writing. And my whole work world changed when I started working for myself. That was key. That was HUGE.
And a lot of the time i think… NO ONE believed in me. Maybe a therapist did. Or teachers did when I was in grad school. But I think people i.e. family were more afraid for me than believed in me. No one said to me YOU CAN, YOU WILL. It was spiritual teachers, some astrologers who gave me that message. Or certain lovers I realize now.
but then i did learn that everyone is different. Honestly the people that i’ve seen with VERY fixed charts have the hardest times sometimes making their lives better. Harder for them to change. They may know what the problem is but stay stuck. I’ve seen this in partic with people with lots of 12th house placements and lots of fixed planets.