I hate being in a body. I hate it. And I don’t think I’ll ever make peace with it. That’s today’s mood anyway 😉
And I know it’s not PC to say so. We’re suppose to luuuuuuuv our bodies, love ourselves, especially as women, find self acceptance and bash that self-hate on the head, do away with it, cut it off. I rather talk about the (my) truth. How it feels. Moon conjunct Pluto feels intense (Pluto) about the body (Moon).
The body: bumps and lumps and spots and needs. So many needs: feeding, elimination, movement, grooming, clothing, and then all the psychological needs to tend to, the existential needs: do you worry? do you have enough love? are you lonely? Is it meaningful? And don’t forget the security fears, the money issues, the making a living, the striving. I hate being in a body. Doctor’s appointments, lab tests, sickness.
Some 12th House people or excessively Pisces people feel not at home in the world. They long to return to the celestial spheres. They are half in this world and half in the next. I got a reading in 2000 before I knew anything about astrology and she told me that I “hadn’t come down all the way.”
I just don’t take joy in it. It feels like a bother. Constant upkeep, constant maintenance. Like housecleaning: it gets dirty again. You have to eat AGAIN. You have to shit AGAIN. You have to make love AGAIN. You have to love. Or else.
What is the cure for this? I have a 6th House North Node, which of course opposes the 12th House spiritual recluse. I have a Cancer Sun which needs to nurture self and other. I have a Virgo Moon which needs to create order and be free from worry (Pisces North Node). The cure is in the doing? The living? The cure is to go slowly, baby steps? The cure is to fight until the death? The cure is to ignore it? The cure is to write about it, unafraid.
Do you relate to your body? How do you relate? How do your Sun/Moon/Nodes relate?
As I reread this post before publishing, I think of times when I am more relaxed with my body’s needs. It’s when I’m doing some kind of exercise, besides just my usual getting about town. Stretching, yoga, something strenuous, whatever. Something that puts me in touch with the power of my body. See, I don’t identify with beauty at all. I don’t identify as an object for someone to admire. When I find some kind of solace it’s through strength. And it’s something I must do alone. You won’t find me in a class, sweating to the oldies with the group.
But the most important lesson of all? Patience. Patience with the body. Patience, not intensity.
And you? Your body? Your Moon?
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13 thoughts on “The Moon Is Your Body”
I dont think the comments would alienate readers. Rather they may inspire deep consideration.
I hope so 🙂
Yes, BODIES TAKE A STUNNING AMOUNT OF UPKEEP. All day, every day, we must cater to their needs for ventilation, protection from the elements, rest, a steady supply of nutrients, clip the nails, brush the hair, wash the hands, it never ends…..until it does.
Yes. It *will* end. And then? Are we born again? Questions, questions. :::waves to Pan Tangible:::
Whew! I am glad someone else feels this way too! 🙂 often I feel like an alien from a faraway planet trapped in a slowly decaying form…12th house sun pluto conjunct Uranus inconjuncting 9th house Aqua moon.
Hi Melissa. Thank you for your comment. When I post these kinds of posts, I tend to worry. – will it alienate readers? Will they come along try to good advice me?
I need to write about these things…. Yeah, I can imagine those aspects of yours give you an interesting um inner life. 12th House intensity to the max!
Moon Pluto conjunct in Virgo. I am acutely aware and conscious of and in my body, as well as that of others. I often sense the world through the feeling in my body (the the pit of my stomach for example). I have always had a deep fascination for it and work with it daily through other people as a doctor. And there is something wonderful about its functionality as well beauty whatever shape or age it is. However, I am mystified about others ignorance or at least lack of interest in their corporeal vessels. I love it most of the time and I am grateful it is as strong and able as it is. Perhaps I scrutinise it too closely: those two crone hairs on my chin I pluck with determination, the single grey hair I chose to leave alone despite it heralding the middle age. But I am more accepting of its changes as I age. What other choice is there?
Hi Joanna! Yes that acute awareness of the body is so Virgo! The attention to every little nook, cranny, detail, process. Pluto obsesses.
What choice is there? None I suppose. Well there is always one morbid choice but we won’t go “there” this morning. I am jealous of your TWO crone hairs lol. Two! LoL 😉
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Love ur feedback Opal. I feel like u understand my writing w/o my needing to say a word 🙂
My moon is conjunct Neptune, so I don’t really notice my body or it’s functions until something goes wrong. Pain is the only thing that’ll get me giving up the poisons:)
My son is a Pisces and up until he was about 6 or 7 he used to get really sad every so often because he wanted ‘to go back to my own planet.’
Sometimes I’d like to be an angel, like in Wings of Desire. The redemption of the body: I feel a new post coming on…. Feels like heartburn lol
I’ve often said I’d rather be a different life form. I’d like to be a tree…in a meditative state for a thousand years. I have a 12th house moon/jupiter conjunction in Cancer. I’ve never really felt at home anywhere. I’ve felt safe, I’ve felt like myself, but rarely like I belong.