I’m in the middle of a Facebook conversation with my buddy Anita about exercise and crying 🙂
This topic came up because she’s a dancer (among other cool things) and I’m on a crusade to prevent diabetes, and somehow we got to talking about fitness and health one day. I have a Virgo Moon (and other Virgo placements). Health is one of my topics.
This morning I mentioned how sometimes my work-outs make me cry. I don’t mean from beginning to end, but sometimes, at some point, I reach my limit (or not even a limit – wasn’t sure how to explain it) and… something happens. I have no set noun or verb or adjective yet for what it is. But I have a theory.
Right away she said this was something that dancers seek out! This type of experience. And I made a promise to myself that the next time it happened, I would slow down, go deeper, and investigate.
What I know now is that it’s about the chakras centers opening. And even if you don’t believe in the chakra system perhaps you believe in memory or experience getting stored in the body. And once you start moving the body, many many parts of the body, in new ways… things happen.
And yes it is about stored pain, wounds, trauma, from this lifetime, from previous lifetimes, from the shut down places in our bodies that are finally starting to move again. Open up again. Here’s an indelicate analogy. Like plugging in a fan. It’s dusty, rusty, been in the closet all winter. Come spring, getting warmer, you take it out, you plug it in. It’s spinning. Breathing. Pulsating. Alive.
I am working with my root and sacral chakras these days and no surprise when I was cooling down after my work-out and was it a bridge pose (or was it a table? Maybe it’s a variation of a table) made me feel… I don’t know how to explain it. It’s not joy. It’s not exactly sorrow. I guess it’s release. Letting go. Letting the fear and the horror go. Letting it go.
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There’s this phrase that personal trainers use. “Until failure.” Work a muscle until failure. Until you can’t anymore.
Taurus is an earth sign, a physical sign, a sign of the senses. Now is a good time to notice your Taurus body: what does it look like, how do you take care of it, how do you feel inside of it. What do you understand about your surroundings, your things, what you own, your fear of lack, your money, what you refuse to share, the ways in which you’ve become so solid, so fixed in your ways that… you’re frozen now.
What does your body crave? What does your body say? What does your body need? And what needs to change?
Those are my eclipse questions for you 🙂
Love, MP
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I discussed this post with someone who linked it and about 4-5 12th house Mars people rolled in to discuss it 🙂 We all admitted to having intense feelings after exercise or violent things. (I often cry or release some emotion after energy healing, breathing meditation, and the easy seated spinal twist asana for beginners… After a couple days in the ashram, I cried for a long time and didn’t forgive my Crab aunt for sucking all that crying out of me by hugging me.) Some people set me off crying after an argument, but really they break open whatever I feel is wrong about my life. .
Ha, this makes me think of a few things. Last year when I was working out HARD and my DOMS was bad, I would frequently feel broken for two days and my trainer would say “Pain is just weakness leaving the body” and when I felt sore while working out and like i couldn’t go on but he could tell I hadn’t reached failure he would say “I know it hurts but that doesn’t mean you can’t lift up your feet, you can still move.”
I then started rock climbing and when I first started and trying to get used to it I found I couldn’t really reach a lot of things but the advice I kept getting was “Stand up, just stand up on your leg” I couldn’t help but think how often that advice just in life would work when trying to achieve any goal. Just Stand Up.
Thanks mightymouse. Love that.
This really spoke to me <3
Thanks, Kash.
@LB love what you wrote. i’ve cried while dancing too. Your post makes me think I should take up singing. I did a workshop once where we laid on the floor and made whale noises : ) @Chris, learning to listen is so hard! I’m trying to find the right intensity of effort, I have an ideal in mind where the effort can be intense but the work flows, so it’s not overly hard on the body. @Anita, aargh camel pose!! the hardest for me. interesting to think of movement as a way to open chakras, going to move with that in mind…. @Charlotte, would love to see you perform, bet it is transcendent for the viewer too. @Aliza, thank you thank you for this post. So much here!!
Thank you too, k. Thanks all of you for being part of my little world here 🙂
Hi k 🙂 – There’s definitely something special about whale sounds – they’re like magic.
I love your little world MP! LB, it really was magical. Maybe something like that will come my way again soon! Calling a vocal whale sound workshop into my future!
must include rolling on floor 🙂
I’ve cried while dancing (2nd house Libra Sun conjunct Neptune-Mercury-Jupiter in Scorpio). Not from effort (which can be equally cathartic), but because there were times when it felt as if my body was speaking the language of God. Though not as intense, I’ve had emotional breakthroughs during singing too – using our ‘voice’ to express ourselves can be a powerful way to release energy and help balance the throat chakra – think of all the things we routinely leave unsaid. Then there’s Reiki . . . sometimes people burst into tears or laughter (or both) for no conscience reason. It just happens. The first time it happened to me, I was shocked.:0
Uh, meant to type *conscious* instead of conscience. Freudian slip much?
The body is the root of life for us. I believe there are gifts there, muddy gifts maybe, gifts that are not wrapped up in paper tissue, but transcendent gifts just the same. Miracles have happened to me dancing, not often, but enough for me to know that the life force wants to move, it has an imperative to flow through/with us. We ignore that at the peril of losing our connection to this core reality, where all the earth is dancing around us.
Odd you should mention this (hi, I am officially a new visitor to this site now…)…
I had a health issue the day before the Scorpio April 25 eclipse. Me, Sun stellium Scorpio, opposite 10th house moon Taurus. And I have reached a “certain age,” though I do not look it.
So at the gym, in a spinning class, the instructor took us hard, first 20 minutes, a fast song, more than 100 “jumps” on the single beat, up, up, up, up. Several people left the class before it ended. Should have been a sign to me. I started to feel my heart, badly, like it was large, ballooned, working too hard, and then right away, the muscle just got sore.
I backed off, but did not leave the class. I should have. Later, in locker room, after having recovered a bit, enough, I thought, I bent over to pick up my gym bag and felt like there was a hole in my chest, it was so sore. I was weak and sick all week. Sleeping a lot. Finally, this week, got to the doctor, figuring there was eclipse “news” in the health warning. EKG, all the other scans (thyroid), all came back negative. I’m less sleepy, not going 4 hours in mid-day. It might have been that odd virus that is really knocking people out.
Hard to say. I’m not going to the wall any more. Half a century maybe means not pushing quite so hard. I’d rather my heart not get enlarged with leaky valves, like my mother’s did before she had to retire early, due to a weakness there. She’s a Leo, I’m Leo rising. Take care of your heart. That’s my eclipse “news.”
Glad you’re here, Chris 🙂
I love I’m your “buddy” in this post. I love it so much!
And I love this post. It’s like what we kind of started talking about on Facebook… connecting it to chakras makes so much sense to me.
For me it’s my solar plexus and hold everything there and the solar plexus is the chakra that’s associated with fear (if I remember that right). Exercise I think is also connected with the heart chakra. It’s why people find camel pose in yoga so vulnerable (the one where you stand on your knees and bend backwards to touch your heels with your hands). It opens your heart chakra but can make you feel uncomfortably open which creates a cardio effect on your heart and why your heart races in that pose. It opens in a way it’s not used to in daily every day life.
I would rather cry and go deeper into the work out than fear it and not go there at all. It’s just a process to find a way through the fear. And you’re so right about it being about how open or closed the chakra is.
I’m glad you didn’t mind! I took the chance anyway 🙂 Love talking about this stuff
Yes! Leave it all on the stage. There are some performances where I absolutely cannot remember what I did but everything came out of me never to be brought up again. I need a purge like that so my soul can be reborn again.