I get ideas for blog posts in the middle of the night and when I’m waking up. And then I promptly forget them.
When I had a Blackberry, I would type at the speed of light and get down my ideas that way, whenever they came. The Android phone touch screen still thwarts me and lately I don’t keep pad and paper by the bed. I guess I should 🙂
Here’s what’s on my mind:
I believe we get the same lessons in our lives over and over until we change. I am going through this now and hoping that I have learned. And I think I have. Maybe! Because a similar situation was about to creep up again and I noticed it! And stopped myself.
For example, I have a very Venus Neptune chart. Delusion, illusion and confusion in love. I have Venus in the 12th House of self-undoing. I have Venus square Neptune (illusion, forgery square love). I have Neptune ruling my descendent (I idealize my partner). I have transiting Neptune, now retrograde, conjunct my North Node (time to learn this lesson!), heading to my descendent! I have Neptune in the 3rd House of how I think!
In other words: clarity is hard to find. To say the least.
Now with a chart like mine, married men will approach me. They ALWAYS have. Since I was a teenager! Emotionally absent men will approach me. Invisible men 😉 will approach me. Disappearing men, dissolving men, deceptive men, addicts (Neptune) of one kind of another.
And it’s up to me ONLY to recognize it (them) for what it is. To stop the old habits and patterns and NOT fall into fantasy land la-la-la down the Yellow Brick Road of loving the invisible absent man.
Reality is the antidote to Neptune i.e SATURN is the antidote to Neptune and my 2nd House Saturn transit hasn’t been only about money but yes about self-worth and about me valuing me. What I want. What I believe *I* am worth.
I wrote in a blog post yesterday that 1. Mystery exists and 2. Some things are worth fighting for
Your believe in your value is one of those “things” and that battle takes place within. And then the rest of your life unfolds, opens up, like a beautiful fan.
Regarding relationships: you MUST define what you want (hello Saturn in Libra!) which includes what will not do. All else follows.