When I was taking my astrology class, the teacher tended to do mini-readings for us so we could learn how to do it ourselves, for ourselves, and for others (well, that’s what it was for me).
And there was often a theme for me… about needing fewer animals and more people in my life. Needing to balance my imbalance (as he saw it). I would get offended, of course, because my work with animals saved me in every way. How could it be wrong? But my teacher wasn’t saying it was wrong. He was saying something else, something I couldn’t hear. Or I could hear it, but… didn’t know What To Do With That Information. Was he a Libra? Yes.
I’m about to lose another dog, not my dog but one that’s a part of my life. It may sound strange, but I pray that the losses come with gains, to help with the transition. (Ooooooooh I just thought of something right now. Ideal for me are the half-animal, half-human types. That’s the honey in the opposition right there, the balancing.)
And I think that the animals I’ve loved who die become part of my Mars in Cancer army. That’s how it feels. They surround me when I dream. Casey, the mutt from childhood, Jasper the cat who I visited near South Street Seaport, Tillie and June, bulldog and hound, especially June, the first dog I ever let love me back. And Squee, who’s probably passed on now. And soon the Yellow Dog. And there are others.
I always love hearing how the dogs wait for me by the door. I love hearing how the cats seem happy and content when their people return from trips. The dogs dance. Today one of the greyhounds jumped up to kiss me. Maybe he was worried because of Hurricane Irene.
My 8th House Ceres opposes my 2nd House Jupiter. Big Mama! Ceres is a Mother, an asteroid with a Cancerian flavor. And sometimes I feel like a midwife of death (I know I’ve mentioned this before) working with sick animals, dying animals. And part of my soul wants this, my 12th House does, it’s comfortable there. Chiron in my 8th (not conjunct Ceres) assures lessons learned that I can pass on.
But now… now I believe I am ready to balance the imbalance of animals vs people, ready now for my Love to be the one waiting by the door, waiting for me to come home, wagging his very human tail.
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4 thoughts on “Love, Death, And My 8th House”
Awww…..
Loved this post. As I lose each beloved pet, I pray to learn whatever it is I need to. And wow, have I ever learned some stuff.
As I read your post, I wonder about my life. It has been, for my entire life, filled with more animals than people.
I’m the one with a T-shirt that says “The only relatives you can choose are your pets.”
But now? I now have less pets than I have had in over 30 years. 2 dogs and one horse. And one of my dogs is elder – 14 1/2, and my horse is 20. My youngest child – lol! – would be considered middle aged – he’s going to be 7 in December.
This is very different for me, considering that at one point, I had 14 horses, 4 dogs, 4 cats and a dozen parrots on my farm that I had. (Not all were mine, but they lived with me, anyway. Boarders, and a friend’s.)
Am I going to be around people more? Gee, I don’t necessarily feel like I need to be. I guess I would travel a bit if I had the choice. Wait until my old girl is gone, board the horse, and take the Aussie with me.
After living in my aunt’s basement for 6 years and taking care of elders, both people and animals, a big ol’ fifth wheel and pickup are looking pretty good. Right now, I’m honored to be with them, but when they are gone? I’m guessing I’ll blow outta here for a while.
Road trip!
thanks Kim. I don’t know if that’s what it would be for you.. but it’s something my teacher said to me more than once!
if travel is in your mind, maybe there’s a way to take short trips…
Short trips indeed. With the accent on “short.” I haven’t been more than 35 miles from the house in months and months. Just can’t go very far, or very long.
But it won’t always be like this, and I will cherish the time I have with my elders while I can, yanno?
(I’ll build up a good head of steam for when I CAN go.)
🙂
Sometimes an afternoon is ALL it takes 🙂