I’m in a mood.
A Jupiter (almost) direct, Mars (almost) in Pisces mood 🙂
And I found myself this evening sticking the old thumb drive into the newish Mac to take a look at the old poems I have saved.
I lost a lot during my Saturn transit. Not my Saturn Return. I’m talking about Saturn in Virgo on my Moon Pluto conjunction with transiting Uranus opposing. But that’s another story 🙂
This is the story of looking through my old poems, not because I’m going to submit an old poem to my friend who’s editing that on-line journal, but just because I wanted to… see what’s there. That’s what we do in the Meditation class too: see what is there.
And I thought hmm maybe I’ll bring these poems here. I always used to think that my poems needed to be read out loud, so if you are reading this poem… try it.
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Plum Wine
Q: What is suffering?
A: The moonlight, always the moonlight.
Q: You’re thinking of Eiji again, shadows on his throat.
A: Yes, there was a sound the car made
like moonlight on his skin,
his head at my breast, body bent halfway,
and when I let him get there…
there was no suffering at that hour, anywhere.
“I am weak, “ he said. “I am old and weak,”
(one empty child’s car seat in the back seat.)
He came twice, had me watch his face.
And he was not suffering then, and I was not,
that night in the car, the Coralville Reservoir
in the smell of his body.
And there was nothing like plum wine there, pouring
from his mouth or mine,
his breath or mine (his mouth)
his thick dark hair yes
in his thick black hair—
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🙂 I think I was… how old? Twenty-something 🙂 And in love with my Japanese lover.
I picked him up, you know. I mean I had spied him each day at the coffee shop and decided one afternoon I would ask him about this particular haiku I loved about Kyoto that had been translated from Japanese to English and I (convoluted isn’t it?) asked him to translate it back to Japanese. Or something like that. And we became friends and then a bit more.
I wish I could tell you about his chart. I knew nothing about his chart. And he is one of the few who hasn’t tracked me down on Facebook 😉
Pisces is art. Pisces is poetry. Mars is the drive to do it 🙂
Jupiter goes direct tomorrow in the middle of the night for Pacific peeps and at… 6:37 a.m. in the Big City. Let the games resume 🙂
By the way, if you want to keep up with my Little Poem posts, I’ve created a new category (Poetry) for them on the blog.
6 thoughts on “Little Poem For Tuesday”
this is beautiful. i hope you do continue to share—- i’m looking forward to reading more.
Hello kelley and thank you 🙂
I love that poem MP, dark and warm, with shards of moonlight
Thanks so much — I don’t even know what it means (such is my relationship with poetry) – but i’m crying – with a smile on my face. Blessings on you.
On you too, mary 🙂
How do you KNOW?
He hasn’t tracked you.
Unless he’s on the other side- you just CAN”T know.
Every time something CRAZY would happen between me + my “friend” I’d think “who has the TIME for this crap?”
LOL
Boy was I stupid.
He has a 4ºMars in Taurus direct hit to my 4ºVenus in Taurus. It’s just so— weird- too much twilightzone dimensional crap- it was the weirdest time I have ever lived thru…….
He tracked my entire life, visited my boarding school, DINED with the owners of my school, checked out my ROOM WHERE I SLEPT! I called him a liar- oh no- he described the whole thing! ( EMBARRASSED the living daylights out of me in front of my friends- while I acted like we hardly know one another.. eye roll )
He went and stayed at the beach I lived at came back with a mohawk that knocked me on my ass, and spend a great deal of time spying, whether hanging under the stairs by my window or getting his friends to date my girlfriends so they could come into my home and tell him E V E R Y T H I N G about my life.
Still I call BULLSHIT.
He followed me to a soulmate board I was on- I used to be quite active, try to help people etc
So after he contacted my girlfriend on there, I left.
Thankfully, gracefully she reassured my people I loved them, but uhhh my guy is sharkin around, I had to leave AGAIN.
I’m talkin 911 pages with HIS CODE on my pager that had been shut off for over a YEAR OK?
WEIRD
I was rather recently reminded his brother stays a constant block away from me- wherever I move.
THERE he fucking IS….
It was a comfort when he showed up after I found out about my dad’s death. I’m serious. It destroyed me.
He was always The Ambassador.
BULLSHIT…………
He got married. They had a baby daughter. Our birthdates are like 12 hours apart.
I didn’t even look at the baby’s chart- a couple of my students pointed it out.
MY GOD if you saw my chart and hers- you would FREAK- every karmic angle is GLARINGLY OBVIOUS.
People said- it’ s like he PLANNED IT that way- ONLY HE could get that perfect aim – MY BIRTHDAY…
It’s like having a daughter from another life without all the physical stress of actually having to birth her myself!
Fucking AWESOME!
🙂
The ONE THING I flat out refused to do was REPRODUCE, well that has cost me a few times.
OK handled.
Ya know I have an Uncle. He fell in love with a girl when they were young, he went into the service, she got married, he got out he married someone else.
She never had kids.
He wound up divorced…..
My other Uncle told me- oh he ALWAYS KNEW EXACTLY where SHE WAS…… ( yeah- HE’S THAT TYPE OF GUY )
They are married now.
Happily.
And that is fucking TORRID! I LOVE THOSE TWO…. and I told her that. I love both of my aunts- but THAT blew my skirt up! Cuz I’m THAT TYPE of chick that UNDERSTANDS that kind of shit.
Fuck the RULES!
ALL I’m saying is-
even when you think….. who would possibly DO THAT?
Haa yeah WHO INDEED……
Maybe don’t be SO SURE of yourself- I’ve made a complete ass of my self for YEARS doing exactly that…
My Retrograde fuck kicks my ass whenever he feels like it- and I, in my own bitchy way smack him right back.
I’ve watched literal storms happen when the King and Queen are at WAR… Earthquakes when I wanted him DEAD! His whole town crumbled to dust!
The whole trip has been quite interesting.
I didn’t WANT it, but I wouldn’t trade it either.
500 years and still………
ya know?
oxoxo,
>^:^<