What is it you want to show me? What is it I need to learn from you? Why do you keep showing up in my life? 

I’m thinking of one friend with this placement, one person that I used to sleep with, one person that I want to sleep with.

I have Venus in the 12th House and you’d think there would be an understanding. Scorpio trines Pisces but they seem worlds away to me right now. Hmm. Both potentially self-destructive but in different ways.

One of these folks has Venus in a water sign. The other two in air signs. And then of course there is the entire chart to consider BUT STILL it seems peculiar that I have them and I realize tonight that I must figure out why they are here, what I need to understand.

There’s an  unbridled unabashed approach to sex that I see in my Venus in the 8th House people.  From what I can grasp — no guilt, no shame. It’s a lusty placement. And they seem to be able to have impersonal sex (say, an orgy) as much as they can have the more typical 1:1 variety in a love-context.

I was on the phone today with one of my Venus in the 8th House people and telling him that I ALWAYS had one intention where sex was concerned. Always. Whereas he was saying that… each relationship he had had its own sexual story.

For me though? Single-minded. And I almost started to cry. Because I was remembering myself seeking and seeking and seeking and not finding, over and over, in my 20s and 30s.

For the moment I am guessing that it must be mutual… whatever it is between me and the 8th Housers. They have something for me. I have something for them. I have Chiron in the 8th House. I heal through sex. Heal others.  Heal myself. But it’s more thorny than horny.

Chiron in the 8th: sex causes pain. Not physical pain (although that may be true for some) but a kind of psychic pain because the distance cannot be closed between you and the other person and penetration is the closest you’ll come, so to speak, to closing that distance. And thus the endless longing of this Venus in the 12th House person.  And you want them to feel what you feel.

Maybe these 8th House people are showing up to tell me that YES the distance can be closed or YES the distance is an illusion or YES I love you anyway even though we aren’t the same or just… YES.

Who keeps showing up in your life?

xo

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