What if you don’t want to be in progress anymore? What if you just want to get there? What if you want to be done, settled, and you’re not allowed. That you’re doomed to strive and push that rock up the hill or stare at the mountaintop from the bottom. What if.
Well, then you better enjoy the way there, even if you never get there. Just a little. Anyway you can. Survival skills. Friendship. Sex. Intimacy. Love. More love. Food. I’m going through the daily life list here. Daily life and then some. Intimacy. Real intimacy. When was the last time you had, or felt, truly intimate with another and I don’t mean sex necessarily but, well, you know what I mean. That feeling you feel when somebody really knows you. And… they don’t leave.
I don’t know what keeps you going. Maybe it’s music or work or family or being alone. The list is endless. Maybe you travel. Maybe you avoid thinking. Maybe you want to die sometimes. Or maybe you used to want to die sometimes but those days are gone. And you fear they’ll return.
We are forbidden to be shallow during Scorpio Season. I swear everyone in our little group in MoonPlutoLand (which I no longer call MoonPlutoLand) is feeling this. Heavy.
And it’s not bad but it is… breathing down our necks. We do our Tarot draws, we talk about our lives, we look at our transits and I know that you know that the coming weeks of more Scorpio and more Capricorn and the Gemini Full Moon and Uranus going direct will bring your life to a level of present tense, of NOW, that maybe doesn’t feel so comfortable. You have to look at your life. Look at the mold on the shower curtain.
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Mercury is retrograde, folks! Retrograde in Scorpio and conjunct the Sun and Node in Scorpio and confusion is as deep as it is high for many of us during a retrograde. Our minds play tricks. What is real. Who is real. Am I alive? Or am I just breathing?
Here’s my Scorpio story for today: I have writer’s block. For the first time EVER. Maybe. Or, at least, it’s rare for me. The other day I did Horoscopes for half the zodiac and thinking I would finish it today but I did not. Not yet. Hopefully tomorrow. So I’m sorry Libra through Pisces but my Mystery ‘Scopes got snagged by Saturn and Mercury retrograde in my 3rd House of the Mind.
And you?
xo
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10 thoughts on “A Story For Mercury Retrograde”
Well, “he” is back, at least in txt form. He finally responded to a text I sent about the Eclipse on his MC. His txt style leaves much to subtle interpretations. I can’t really tell what he is thinking, and he won’t clarify. Sigh. File under: Why do we want things (or people) we can’t have and are probably not good for us in the long run.
Yup. Scorpio doesn’t let us hide. My husband has become so volatile lately and for the first time ever I checked his transits and lo and behold he has Pluto crossing his ascendant…just like me! I’ve been a bit disconcerted seeing his change in behavior but at the same time it excites me. I can finally relate to his frustration with the status quo. I feel closer to him now that his Neptune-ism is challenged a bit. I have a good deal of Pluto in my natal so I’m more used to it than him.
We also have been having really good sex. 🙂
lol thanks for sharing. But seriously – Pluto thru the 1st! A very special long lasting transit to say the least.
I know–isn’t it ten years or something? Jeez.
Actually Pluto is in my 12th and just about to move in to the 1st again. Since Pluto was retrograde it went back for a bit.
I’m really excited about this transit. It’s gonna hurt but the pain will be worth it, right? Right??????? 🙂
xoxo
MY GOD! this! THIS and THESE words, this situation/s just JUMPED the hell out at me and smacked me in the face…and HARD! I’ve been doing amazing in my school career at the moment, I feel as if I’m on cloud nine in that respect…but man the rest of my life, is like watching the mold return on my shower curtain, on the tiles and else where. Today I just slept all day basically, or layed in bed (which was glorious considering the hectic semester I have had and the lack of sleep) and now I’m “trying” to paint my toenails for the upcoming holidays BUT things just keep getting in the way of this like everything else in my life currently (love/social life mostly)….and even laying in bed all day didn’t help…in fact I think it made it worse. I’m feeling heavy, lonely, VERY lonely, thinking about the past, and all that nasty stuff that prevents me from moving forward. I have Scorpio in my Ascending sign and I’m still learning so I don’t know how much that has to do with any of this, but man, I’m feeling your post.
it’s a balance. sometimes that escape/stay in bed day is just what is needed. And sometimes it’s overkill. Wisdom is knowing the difference! And not hating yourself if you stayed in bed too long…. We all have such days.
“Look at the mold on your shower curtain”
…as I’m sitting in my bathroom. :/ (I’m a creep).
lol I’m glad I’m not the only one with this problem 🙂
how did you know I have mold on my shower curtain? huh? HUH? 😉
ya know i had this feeling that people were going to comment and say “hey, i ain’t got no mold!”
I just replaced my shower curtain. I throw them out when they get moldy and buy new.
And then at the store I see fancy (to me they are fancy) cloth ones that you wash. Someday perhaps I’ll be on that level of hausfrauery