Retrograde planets are there to give you courage. They force you to choose. To see your options.
Venus will go retrograde in Gemini soon. Not easy! Gemini itself is double and the back and forth motion exacerbates it, especially for the mutables who are getting opposed or squared!
But think about it: the retrogrades are there for you to see life 1. one way and then 2. the other way.
I’ve got a Virgo Moon. I don’t understand anything until I experience it. Which is a pain in the ass.
Are you facing decisions these days? Big ones?