Do you feel Saturn Direct? I do. I know that sounds weird. I mean, I think that sounds weird. But I really feel it: back to business. And a touch of fear. Not that business stopped, but… I can spend all morning trying to explain it and maybe I won’t be able to. Not this morning. But I feel it’s a New Day. And whatever *breaks* we were on, whatever impasse was holding us… Things are moving again.
I’ve got a lot of Saturn in my life right now. A f***ing family of Saturn. Transiting Saturn is sitting on my natal Uranus, but moving away from it. Saturn is again going to square my Sun, and then my Mercury and Mars. And in the sky, Saturn is caught up in the cardinal t-square with Pluto and Uranus. Like fingernails on a blackboard. You want to cover your ears. I remembering reading some explanations for some of these transits: about leaving the old life behind. Not that it’s a pastoral, walk through the forest, la-di-da type of leave-taking. There’s pain involved.
I recently decided to stop writing plays, am leaving a part of my life behind that was important to my identity, my daily life and what I felt was my purpose, and my roommate assumed that I wasn’t feeling the loss. Of course I feel a loss, I told her. She suspected I didn’t because, perhaps, I wasn’t crying (Cancer) about it. I was being more matter-of-fact (Capricorn). But with Saturn transiting my 2nd House? I’ve got more practical matters on my mind. Something is dead. When something is dead, you bury it, don’t you? Or do you give it mouth-to-mouth? Dead is dead, right?
Leaving the old life behind always comes with loss. And maybe it depends on the nature of what is lost and depends on what else you have in your life, but if you break from something and you feel better? Feel relief? Feel like a burden has been lifted, which is different than a feeling of escape… Then I think you may be on the right track.
In my experience: Uranus catapults, jettisons, shocks. And Saturn, at least how I’m feeling it right now, makes you realize, face, what’s not working. After it takes it from you. And it could be the most important thing to you in the world. And well-meaning (ha) friends could be encouraging you to stay the course. But they don’t know what you know. So of course there’s a loss, there’s always loss, when you make a choice. I think this is the essence of Saturn in Libra, now direct.
So, what do you choose? What will you lose? What does your life look like now?