Making Peace With Chiron: God’s Highway

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When I first learned astrology, all those years ago, in that class in New York City, near Penn Station, from a real Occultist, a real Magician, I learned about Chiron. He included Chiron in the chart. Not everyone does.

Some folks do not include Chiron or do not consider him as important as the other outer planets or slow movers.

I wish I didn’t.

I wish we didn’t have a Chiron or need a Chiron.

I wish all of us were without wounds. But this is not “Moshiach time” as a lady I once worked for would probably say. In plain English, this isn’t heaven on earth. Yet.

We have our wounds and they need a representative(s). Chiron is one of these. He makes sure we are continually reminded of our vulnerability. Fragility. Humanity. It’s soooo painful, says Chiron. Can you soften when you are reminded of this instead of hardening your heart? I’ll try too.

Over the years I’ve met more than one astrologer who felt Chiron could NOT be healed, that this wound always opens and re-opens throughout our lives, depending on the transit and our life experiences. This has been my perspective too, and I always felt those “love and light” astrologers were full of shit.  You know the ones I mean? The ones who talk about how great Saturn and Pluto are as if their transits were theme park rides. Life is hard.

No one wants to be writhing in pain all the time and we’re not, for the most part, hopefully, ideally, AND YET those of us who are the explorers and seeker and deep divers, well, we live on a sharp edge. We get hurt. We trust. Many of us are empaths, artists, believers in the invisible.

Question: how to make peace with Chiron. That something will always hurt, has the potential to always hurt, and can get triggered pretty much any time. What do we do? Can we make peace? What do we do? So let’s say Chiron can’t be healed. And let’s say we are so wounded, so so so so wounded. And we try to work and love and be and live whatever life we have and… Chiron. Always Chiron.

“They say” we are supposed to take knowledge from our personal pain. That it’s a gift we can eventually give. Teach. That we can help others. I do believe this is true. Take our writhing and our sorrow and straighten up and strengthen and be a lighthouse for others, be a help, be a heart, life preserver.

Today I reached out to a friend. I was so bummed about something and she was there for me and she showed me good things when all I had to say was sorrowful things. She was a good mirror. She was good.

It was Chiron that was talking, my essential wound. My rejection. Not my filth. That’s Pluto. Not my punishment. That’s Saturn. But my Chiron. My essential wrongness. In all of us there is a place deep inside that just feels incapable of redemption, fixing, perfection, help. That’s Chiron’s curse and the irony is we really can hold others up, comfort others, even when we feel beyond that same help.

Maybe that’s the only way to make peace with Chiron. To give him voice. Speak about the wound. Speak loudly about the wound. Sing it. I’m not sure I ever do. Yes another way is to counsel others and be a good friend but I think there has to be this other way because for many of us giving counsel is not our path. But in this age of social media we can all speak out and take pain out of the dark and make it plain and SEEN. And heard.

Chiron says: I’m not good enough. I’m not X enough. The X is whatever House he’s in for you. That House becomes a black sun. X it out. Cross it out. Ignore it. Until BAM you are forced to confront your brokenness once again.

Advice: find a friend.
Advice: if you don’t have a friend find good counsel who will comfort you. Advice: if you don’t have a friend or counsel find GOD (Goddess, a candle, a Saint).

FIND IT. Because even if writhing in pain occasionally is inevitable, so is solace.

Have you made peace with Chiron? 

Attack Of The Living Chirons!

"sun square pluto"Not even Sun in Cancer yet and I’m thinking a lot about family.

Click here for my Sun in Cancer post on Beliefnet
And click here for my new Beliefnet post on the Lovers Tarot card

I am feeling my mother around me. I am listening to music that I loved so much when I was in high school (falling into a Big Star worm hole here). And now calling my Uncle every Sunday. Family. Early years.

Sun in Cancer is THE primo time for this, ya? And it doesn’t have to be sad. It doesn’t have to be happy either. But I won’t blame you if you can’t stop thinking about WHO IS THERE.
Who you can count on.
Who is gone and never coming back. They were never there to begin with. Or maybe for a second of a second of a second. But you got born anyway.
Love and abandonment.
(Cheerful MoonPluto at your service ;))

Chiron goes retrograde on Friday.

A good friend of mine is under a massive Chiron attack. I suspected she’d been feeling depressed but I had thought she was under some damn good transits. I took a look.

Chiron Return. Chiron square Sun! There were a couple others too. Not happy Chiron, not happy. Moral of story: it pays to pay attention! See, it helps to know what’s happening in your chart so you can gauge the timing and make a plan, including exploration of that heavenly body’s purpose and natal situation in your chart. And that’s just for starters.

CHIRON RETURN IS A RETURN TO THE SCENE OF THE CRIME. The original crime. The original wound. Why? For healing. Yeah. I know this kind of talk probably BORES YOU. Because you thought you were already healed. That you had nothing left to heal. Or you don’t want to heal, you don’t want to deal. Listen. You want your life to get better? It gets better when you stop avoiding this stuff. Of course it’s your choice. But it all comes back in the end. Return of the Repressed. And then it comes out in weird dysfunctional ways if you don’t open it up, take a look, and send yourself back to those moments where you felt so alone. Send yourself back. This is Reiki talk. This is soul retrieval. You can GO BACK THERE and lend a hand. Otherwise the same mistakes, the same depression, the same fear…

This is my belief. Your mileage may vary.

Chiron Return is this… BIG HELLOOOOO. HELLO IN THERE!!! It’s the big you peering into the soul of the baby/child you TO STOP THE BLOOD. I often see a giraffe face. Really. A giraffe bending his/her face down to mine.

Chiron is a major player in my chart. I was born on a Chiron station. 8th House Chiron. And maybe we never figure it all out. I don’t think we have to. But if our lives keep… not living up to our desires then… time to do something different.

YOU DON’T HAVE TO BE AFRAID. Not anymore. But you do have to… slow down, get off the drugs, get off automatic pilot. And by “drugs” I mean… anything that keeps you prisoner — whatever the addiction is. Don’t you want to know your own life? Instead of just running from thing to thing, place to place, person to person?

Gonna draw one card for the folks under their Chiron Return:

Ooooohhh King of Swords. Honesty. What is just. What is fair. UNFLINCHING. Because you didn’t get it then. You didn’t get what was just and fair. And this is a LOGIC King. No blindfold here, no emotional sway. He sees oh yes he sees. Kings (says Mary K. Greer) are SHAMANS. This King has come to SAVE YOU. It’s your own mind.

Love, MP

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New Beliefnet post is here! About the Sun entering Cancer this week! 

Testimonial!

"moon conjunct chiron"One of my “students” in MoonPluto Land posted this in class today and told me I could use it as a Testimonial.

We were talking about Chiron and she is close to her Chiron return, which is conjunct her Moon.

“I’ve been to numerous therapists and it’s all been “abandonment issues” to them. I had been working with an amazing tarot person on another issue and my mom came up and she referred me to Aliza when she couldn’t get any more from the ether.

I started woking with Aliza in March and by May she’d helped me unearth the REALITY of this situaiton. It’s not about abandonment; it’s my self-worth.

This process started by her interpreting a dream for me and then she used astrology and tarot to help me finish the digging.

Oddly enough my relationship with my mom is better than ever because those were HER issues. It was lost pieces of the puzzle in a picture I didn’t know was incomplete.

I have lots of Virgo in my chart so for me understanding is huge & the biggest step in healing. Aliza says it’s the most underrated step and she’s right. THANKS MOON PLUTO GAL :)

Thank you too. :) My clients are also my teachers.

Love, MP