The more you love, the greater the fear of death.
Theirs.
And maybe yours.
But more theirs!
😉
So you choose not to love.
Is this you? Is this you in love?
And then what happens?
Tip no. 5:
Go and return.
Leave so you can come back again.
Hide and Seek.
Fort/Da.
To quote poet Jack Gilbert:
Love is apart from all things.
Desire and excitement are nothing beside it.
Do you agree?
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A few highlights of the week:
Some of us need more Venus. Some of us need less. I could use a bit more smart Venus strategy. I admit it! I am not strategic. I’m emotional. Reactive. Passionate. Angsty. (So I write. And then I write more.)
To quote Jack Gilbert again: Passion is clearly the path but does not bring us to love.
For those of you who want (or need) EVEN MORE VENUS, the Goddess enters Libra tomorrow. She is here to teach you. Follow her lead if you are like me, if you need her. She attracts what she needs. She doesn’t need to bark or bite. Or yell. Oh no. Heaven forfend. Not that. No yelling, please 🙂 But she’s a button pusher nonetheless. Oh yes she is.
The calm before the storm. That’s how this week feels to me. Storm isn’t the word I want though. There may be no storm. It may be sunny skies all the way for you. No cyclone, no tempest.
My point is that… there are a number of juicy aspects this weekend (thus they are building now and we feel that pressure) and next week is a Total Lunar Eclipse (at 15 degrees Aries – which partnerships will die? Which partnerships will live? ) so… we walk across the rooftops this week.
The Moon is in Capricorn mid-week which will conjoin Pluto of course and make a tsquare with Uranus and the transiting planets in Libra. You want tense? You got tense. Sorry Cancers 🙁 You are the “empty leg” here but please do not hide. Instead: observe.
Weekend Fun Ahead 😉
Sun in Libra square Pluto (someone is jealous of your pretty dress)
Mars square Chiron (the bandaid isn’t holding, the bandaid is leaking, you are bleeding)
Mercury goes Retrograde (extra wobbly scheduling, double check everything)
Mars trine Uranus (and Jupiter) YESSSSS!!!!!!
Keep doing your thing. Keep driving. Suddenly that’s the image that came to mind. You in your car. Singing to the radio. Driving along. And you are passing this billboard and that billboard and this landmark and that landmark and this strip mall and that monument to AMERICAN LIFE (I am writing to you from America) and sundry consumer outpost. Keep going. DO NOT STOP TO SHOP. YOU DO NOT WANT WHAT THEY ARE SELLING. They are selling Sun Pluto dramarama. They are selling Mars Chiron salt on a wound and Mercury Retorgrade fuck with your plans. JUST. SAY. NO. Because next week…
What I’m suggesting is not avoidance although Mars square Chiron (and Neptune) could present denial as a good time (Mars in Sag). What I am suggesting is that you GO PAST IT. Observe and go past it. Into the wild. Into next week. Because next week is the game changer (the Eclipse) the start of a run of energy that has change in mind for you.
AND we’ve got the Fire Trine of Faith and Courage and Creativity on our side here.
My only other request is that you look good for Libra Season. Spend some time on your look. Some time, some money. It never hurt anyone to make a little effort. Even I’m wearing some lip color while I type this 🙂 EVEN ME, BITCHES!
Love is one of many great fires, writes Jack Gilbert.
Which fire will you tend to this week?
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3 thoughts on “No Cyclone, No Tempest: The Stars This Week (+ Libra Season: How To Have A Relationship W/O Losing Yourself Pt 4)”
I lose myself because I forget to make myself important. I don’t have love relationships anymore but in general, I give too much and burn out.
For some reason my subconscious isn’t ready to explore yet, I can’t get over something that happened a year ago. Perhaps its the clusterfuck of things that happened over the past few years that have broken something in me. I thought I was over it but when something really reminds me of it the old feelings come up and I feel abandoned and tricked. Maybe its just neptune retrograde over my 7th.
There’s something I completely missed in the fog. I’d love to find new insight. We weren’t compatible; I loved the idea of him and couldn’t accept his reality over his potential; he embraced his fears and embodied them to feel power over them, then used that power over me to prove how completely unfeeling and manipulative (powerful) he can truly be; he never really cared about me as much as having someone to always be in the picture making him feel less alone; he resented me and how much I kept trying to love him in-spite of his faults because no one wants to be loved in spite, they want to be accepted; he resented other things about me (blah, etc, long list); he just wanted freedom; he really was just playing a game and didn’t think I was going to be hurt by it, as if maybe emotionally I seemed stronger or smarter than to let something like that break me; it was a scorpio test: he wanted to see how far i would be willing to go with him and if I truly would stay and fight forever because I wasn’t lying and he really did mean that much to me; it was a scorpio test: he wanted to see what I was truly made of and how much I truly lived by “expect the worst, hope for the best”; he’s a narcissist and I caught him in a lie so he turned the tables making me the ultimate enemy while he’s the public victim of some psycho; he secretly hated me for years and this was his revenge.
He said I didn’t listen, but I couldn’t hear him. He stopped talking to me years ago. No matter what he was saying, i lost the man who confided in me and opened his heart to me years ago and it didn’t matter that I stayed loyal and willing, and patient. He didn’t like the closeness and feeling like he was losing himself to me somehow but he couldn’t just say that. Or I couldn’t truly understand until now. He has nothing to give and for some reason that’s like walking into a white hallway full of doors leading nowhere. I feel a sense of falling off the Earth because there’s nothing there. I don’t want closure, I just feel empty like for all of the years I thought I had a soulmate, I had vapour.
There are of course other things I have thought of, but I don’t think having any answer matters anymore and I don’t miss anything about him at all. I’m not angry or bitter, etc. I finally see who he is today and who I am today probably aren’t compatible and I smile when I see him post something funny on a mutual friends page. I’m glad he’s happy and I am sorry for all of the ways I made him feel less than or made him unhappy. I know most people aren’t as complicated yet completely simple as him or as chaotic and unapologetic. He didn’t love me, nothing about me was his type, and I’m glad it ended in such a way that my foundation changed. I like different things in people, I’m no longer attracted to instability, and I get that I needed him just as he was during that period of my life.
I’ve gone over all of this a million times yet I can’t get past it. Why am I unable and uninterested in reconnecting with anyone I knew before that day last year. Not even people who don’t associate with him? Where and why is the switch still turned off? The therapist in my head says he hurt *me* not just my heart. He tore away everything I thought about myself and everything I believed about the world while undermining my trust in him and everyone I associated with him. He showed me just how incapable I was of taking care of myself in my willingness to trust someone who believed himself to be the devil. I can state the astro, and all the underlying psychology but I now know that I don’t always choose good people or know how to spot the beast marks before its too late. And I believed too deeply in fairytales no matter how rational and cynical I thought I was. I’ll always wonder, “how did I find him?” and “am I meant to find worse?” Neptune will be in my 7th after all.
I hope venus in libra helps me see a bit clearer. Mars in libra had that effect on me so who knows. There really was something on his page that sparked something in me… lol maybe it’s your optimistic tone towards love. I’m trying to grow that in myself.
Sorry, but If I subscribe, I’ll stop reading posts. I think it has something to do with feeling too close, too committed. Obviously I am what I attract .
I LOVE this post–so informative and substantial. It reminds me of what fire I’ll be tending this week, and also the importance of a little adornment to honor Libra season and the fire trine. I think I’ll follow your example and wear some lip color this week, too. (Perhaps a bold-but-sophisticated shade of red.)
“a little adornment” 🙂