The Sun is in *early* Libra.
Too soon to oppose Uranus, square Pluto, square Jupiter.
OR ARE YOU FEELING THIS ALREADY?
Sliced, diced, devoured.
The last 48 hours for me were life-changing, harrowing.
And mostly (75% ?) because of MY reaction.
And I saw so clearly what I have been lugging around with me despite my… growing one business.
And then another business (this one, my blog and astrology business).
Despite finally finding the love of my life.
I saw my TERROR.
Yes, that is the word, terror, eyes blinking less slowly, fast pulse but shallow. That Book of Job feeling again.
Whether you survived a war, a rape, your childhood, your house burned down, or other tragedy. There are many. One false (actually, one TRUE) move and you are back there.
If you are lucky, you come out of it. The panic subsides. The bad news was a false alarm. Everyone lives happily ever after.
But the truth is: IF you still go THERE, back to the scene of the crime, then you need help.
And this is the good news: YOU CAN GET IT.
You don’t have to keep going back there. Thing is this though — once you DO come back from the lower world, once your soul is back together, everything changes. You can’t live a lie ever again.
So the last 48 hours for me were life changing.
And I made a deal with God how it would be if everything was AS I FEARED, if everything went wrong.
But I neglected to make a deal with God for… WHAT IF EVERYTHING IS OKAY.
And… that’s where I find myself right now, talking to you here. The eye of the storm has shut for the time being.
Full speed ahead, my friends.
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So the Sun is in early Libra. The Moon is about to enter Cancer. Mercury is in late Libra. Feelings, cooperation, relationships, mending fences and relationships, love, home, being nice. PEACE. Incredible peace. Better than ice cream.
Venus is trine Jupiter (in water signs) which is lucky and generous, and Mars is squaring Venus. This love is here to stay. Don’t let your pride get in the way.
Saturn through Pluto, Chiron, and the North Node are ALL between 8 and 10 degrees (except for Neptune at 3 Pisces) so you want to look for these degrees in your chart, planets or angles.
You are being touched by angels and devils and you have a story to tell. Share it here.
Love, MP
P.S. It’s okay to not know what you want.
What’s *not* okay is to live in fear. Because that’s not good enough. That’s not a life. You can have more. Consider this your Thursday sermon 🙂
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“If you are lucky, you come out of it. The panic subsides. The bad news was a false alarm. Everyone lives happily ever after.
But the truth is: IF you still go THERE, back to the scene of the crime, then you need help.”
Every time I get back there I go on meds.
“And mostly (75% ?) because of MY reaction.
And I saw so clearly what I have been lugging around with me despite my… growing one business.”
I had it with people teasing me at work and told my boss. My ex took the time to talk to me tonight and break up with me all over again, I’m messing up and the deepest dross from high school is coming back. And I look back on it and my reaction to the Libra was always lightning quick. “What did you eat today? (In my mind: “More junk? tsk tsk”) Are you saving money? (In my mind: “Because if you’re not, I am now going to tell you you’re not an adult”) Why are you awake when you have work to do? … He told me I assumed and I did assume. If I tempered my tendency to cling to avoid rejection, him, after trying to be friendy with me in a way I didn’t ask for, telling me he didn’t have respect for me and debating cutting me off wouldn’t have been such a torture. I had wanted him not to play at being friends. I don’t know. I don’t like the deep reasons for why I cling, it has to do with thinking I’m not good enough if I get dropped, fear of rejection, fear of being dropped. Because if they’re considering dropping they must be above me.
My self esteem. He doesn’t understand it takes time and thinks I’m doing everything to crash and burn. I am. Or that his censure doesn’t help… so I think…. but apparently I was saner when I was with him. Who knows. don’t know how to go about getting it (though according to him I don’t know what I want.) Who is put together thoguh?
Yesterday was just awful. My co-workers lovingly took me aside and told me that basically I’ve been looking like crap. I was so “crushed” and basically cried all day. I know they mean well and what they say has some truth to it. I’ve been trying so hard to “fake it till I make it” and apperantly I’ve been failing at the fake it part. 🙂
I was amazed to read this this morning as my partner and I had some deep dark issues from our pasts coming up and everything your wrote resonated deeply as I read this. Thank you
I know that feeling, I felt it yesterday, when I knew I didn’t wanted to come back and have food issues again…or low self esteem issues again. I know now that I won’t because I love myself and I want to give me the best food, a good lifestyle. This wasn’t an easy journey but I feel good now!=) thank you Aliza!=)
Oh, those degrees…I have natal chiron and saturn at 10° virgo and pisces in that order. Opposition.
And transit Neptune is right on my descendant. 3° pisces! So I guess that relate =)
Congratulations by the way!! =)
Thank u, Alicia
All your posts are so relevant, guiding and affirming for me this year. I have a new, deepening and real, respect (and use) for astrology and other of my own intuitions/ways of comprehending.
Thank you, Liz. What beautiful praise