Love makes me feel weak. And I’m not saying this is good or bad. Yet. I guess it’s neither. Or either. I just know it makes me feel weak. Vulnerable? That too. Like a fight with my boyfriend renders me dumb, voiceless. Because I realize in those moments after the fight that… we are. We are a we. Doing this. And it stops me. And then I shut-up. My body shuts-up. Which is different than shutting down. I go quiet. Like a church. Hello 12th house 🙂
And then it dawns on me that this is how I feel and that I LIKE it, and try to describe it. I’ve got a very Venus Neptune chart. Venus in the 12th, Venus square Neptune, Neptune on my descedent, Neptune in my 3rd giving me dreamy thoughts, and I almost forgot: North Node in Pisces conjunct the descendent.
But these feelings are no less real than my Venus Saturn neuroses. Two sides of the same. And, yes, I do have a Neptune Saturn opposition in my chart. Dream. Crash. Dream. Crash. Dream. But then sometimes? The dream stays a little longer, it spends the night, you wake up with it. Still there? Yes, still here.
And it IS good. There is a deep pleasure for me in these feelings. It’s a humbling feeling but different than the way Saturn humbles. It has an of awe to it. It’s bigger than me. And I feel it deep deep down, in my chest, that very quiet feeling, calm, but deep. I’m sorry I can’t think of a better, more interesting word than deep but by this deep I don’t just mean profound, I mean location: deep IN.
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How does love feel to me? My first response was “Bah! Humbug!”
Realizing that’s a sour grapes attitude, and after careful consideration, I have decided that love, to me is:
1) Please share your ideas with me (Venus in Gemini)
2) The more outlandish, the better (Venus’ ruler, Mercury conjunct Uranus and Juno in the 9th)
3) But be nice, kind and respectful of boundaries (Venus in 7th)
4) Honor is mandatory. Humor, and creative word-play is appreciated (Venus’ ruler, Mercury, in Leo)
Cool list 🙂 I should do one for myself. Yes, the honor is mandatory for me too, and hard to find. Venus in Leo. And actually I’m in the midst of wondering whether I need a chart rectification. Wondering (once again, I’ve wondered this before) if I am Leo Rising and not Virgo Rising which would make the honor-thing must WORSE.
My own short list, off the top of my head (or heart)
1. Venus square Saturn as a young person: Love is hard
2. Venus square Saturn as an older person: Love is work.
3. Venus square Neptune as a young person: Love disappears
4. Venus square Neptune as an older person: Love is… well… okay I’ll return to this list 😉
Venus sextile Jupiter: big love if Neptune can hide and Saturn can warm up. Venus’ ruler in my 11th. A chill perhaps.
Ha, more Leo! We need more of the lion these days! Rectification would help in forecasting for your chart, right?
I like our lists, it’s like a scientific formula for solving problems (or at least clarifying them). Venus/Saturn….ugh I hear you! I like the procession as you age…from “love is hard” to “love is work”. I’m still struggling with the lack and fears associated with Venus/Saturn! It’s so eerie how it manifests sometimes, even when there is clearly no intent of illwill in me or the other person.
I’ve been thinking about this off and on all day! And now I tempted to think… that I am Virgo Rising… and that it’s my Venus conjunct BML that gives me such a dark Venus Leo…..
I don’t know if the struggle ever stops – a sensitive partner can help though.
It’s like a puzzle. The pieces fit a certain way. And then we make the best of it.
Leo Venus in 12th with BML. Isn’t that rather intense and independent? Dark as in deep? Very aware of the interconnectiveness of us all, yet fiercely retaining self in relationship?
Throwing out ideas here. Don’t want to intrude or act like I know. Not much experience with BML…. but I have noticed the asteroids/etc really do have an effect! They have been the answer several times for me when I couldn’t figure something out. (Just like an “Ah ha! That’s it!” moment.)
Realizing that everything just doesn’t gel and that relationships take a tremendous amount of effort. Also, dealing with the over idealization of partners, which is definitely a Venus-Neptune issue.
Ah yes, indeed it is! And they do take effort, don’t they? And here I thought it was just me 😉
I have a Venus-Neptune conjunction in Sagittarius in the 12th. Love makes me feel uplifted and inspired. It makes me feel like there are infinite possibilities for growth and expansion. Also, love can blur the edges. It can make me reluctant to take off the rose colored spectacles. Rendering me very hesitant to dive into the not so pleasant realities of the mundane parts of a relationship.
Hello Mind of Sadge! That’s a lot of Neptune for one person in one spot!
Not so pleasant realities? HMMM wonder what those cld be!!