I can’t not blog about this and yet I want to keep the subject matter somewhat private. Let’s see how I do attempting to discuss this in general terms. It’s a Moon Pluto story in case you are wondering. Moon Pluto in Virgo that is. Analytical, thinky distancing Virgo.
This is what happened: my feelings came back tonight. For two months. Pretty much (exactly) two months I felt numb about a certain situation in my life. And then this evening like a flood, it all ran back to me, emotional memories, body memories. Flashbacks. And I’m not talking about trauma per se but I am talking about pain, loss, disappointment, and the struggle to integrate i.e. that I now need to integrate the old stuff with the present moment. See, the present moment is pretty different from the past but… right now it’s “neither here nor there.” Or it’s both/and!
How is this a Moon Pluto topic? Emotional intensity. The dam and then the dam breaking. So I made my New Moon in Gemini intention around this idea of integration even though I’m not sure yet how I’ll do it.
Will there be more feelings, more revelations? I’m sure of it.
What are your thoughts on integrating past and present?