What to do when you do not know WHY things have unfolded the way they have — and you WANT TO KNOW.
Do you get that feeling of MUST KNOW?
A friend of mine — quite devout — told me to look for the bracha, the blessing in it. Although we weren’t talking about the whole story we were talking about a new development.
But I admit I feel completely dumbfounded. I want:
1. to know why
2. for the pain to stop.
But the pain continues.
Not non-stop, but it comes. My guest.
Today I did not know how to make room for it.
It was… inconvenient.
Would the pain be less if I knew why? I’m not so sure. A wise man told me not to stay obsessed with… knowing or having the answers.
If you have not really wept, you have not really started to meditate.
-Ajahn Chah
I have wept. And I have meditated. But something else is swelling here.
If I were to attach this feeling to a single transit, I’d be looking for the Transit of Voicelessness & Fog which must be remedied by the Transit of Song, the Voice. Sounds like Neptune a mile long in either direction. Sigh.
Mars is conjunct Neptune now, in Pisces. Mars is force. Neptune is fog. What you need are headlights. The things you want to break are already broken (says Mars Neptune). There’s no point (says Mars Neptune) This too shall pass (says Mars Neptune).
And that frustration you feel? That’s the fuck-energy of Mars plus the longing wistful distance of Neptune. Sigh. Sigh (says Mars Neptune).
I’ll be glad when this transit is over and I have my Saturn back. Oh. Mars Neptune is squaring Saturn. That’s the frustration of your passion and desire right there. I pray for the remedy of this condition in 2015 before my head and heart explode.
IN OTHER NEWS:
Mercury goes retrograde next week in the sign of Aquarius, the Water Bearer, the container of emotion, not the emotion itself, and we have a New Moon (and Sun) in Aquarius as well.
Can you let yourself be new?
xo
3 thoughts on “Divine Discontent: Mars Conjunct Neptune in Pisces (square Saturn)”
PS — Re: your feeling a need to understand the cause of whatever conflict you’re experiencing, I believe the
key may be to let anger and frustration flow without judgement, and allow compassion
for Self activate your powerful connection w/Spirit .. I would never suggest to anyone to
renounce the desire to know. That does not seem a realistic path to growth.
There is always a way to know. The release of that which blocks the knowledge – in this case
a Mars/Saturn thing – seems the key to unlock that gate… xox
As one w/1 deg Pisces Sun opposite Pluto, all points in this configuration correspond w/a high stakes operation that requires
the powerful participation of another person. And everything you describe here certainly applies.
I am looking for the creative potential in this dynamic, as an attitude of capitulation is not a healthy
option for me. One such positive potential seems to be the wedding of the three energies, in their positive poles,
the action required to resolve the feeling of tension, or fear, generated by the square..
Mars, Neptune and Saturn working together can yield divine inspiration applied with force and discipline –
the bringing into form (Saturn) the seeming impossible (Neptune) through courageous action (Mars.)
The key seems to be Neptune – strong in his own sign – as an infusion of spirit into a seemingly dense situation.
VISION MADE MANIFEST is my chosen name for this moment.
HO! I WILL IT SO! SO BE IT.
<3
i cant wait to be new!