I am feeling my mother around me. I am listening to music that I loved so much when I was in high school (falling into a Big Star worm hole here). And now calling my Uncle every Sunday. Family. Early years.
Sun in Cancer is THE primo time for this, ya? And it doesn’t have to be sad. It doesn’t have to be happy either. But I won’t blame you if you can’t stop thinking about WHO IS THERE.
Who you can count on.
Who is gone and never coming back. They were never there to begin with. Or maybe for a second of a second of a second. But you got born anyway.
Love and abandonment.
(Cheerful MoonPluto at your service ;))
Chiron goes retrograde on Friday.
A good friend of mine is under a massive Chiron attack. I suspected she’d been feeling depressed but I had thought she was under some damn good transits. I took a look.
Chiron Return. Chiron square Sun! There were a couple others too. Not happy Chiron, not happy. Moral of story: it pays to pay attention! See, it helps to know what’s happening in your chart so you can gauge the timing and make a plan, including exploration of that heavenly body’s purpose and natal situation in your chart. And that’s just for starters.
CHIRON RETURN IS A RETURN TO THE SCENE OF THE CRIME. The original crime. The original wound. Why? For healing. Yeah. I know this kind of talk probably BORES YOU. Because you thought you were already healed. That you had nothing left to heal. Or you don’t want to heal, you don’t want to deal. Listen. You want your life to get better? It gets better when you stop avoiding this stuff. Of course it’s your choice. But it all comes back in the end. Return of the Repressed. And then it comes out in weird dysfunctional ways if you don’t open it up, take a look, and send yourself back to those moments where you felt so alone. Send yourself back. This is Reiki talk. This is soul retrieval. You can GO BACK THERE and lend a hand. Otherwise the same mistakes, the same depression, the same fear…
This is my belief. Your mileage may vary.
Chiron Return is this… BIG HELLOOOOO. HELLO IN THERE!!! It’s the big you peering into the soul of the baby/child you TO STOP THE BLOOD. I often see a giraffe face. Really. A giraffe bending his/her face down to mine.
Chiron is a major player in my chart. I was born on a Chiron station. 8th House Chiron. And maybe we never figure it all out. I don’t think we have to. But if our lives keep… not living up to our desires then… time to do something different.
YOU DON’T HAVE TO BE AFRAID. Not anymore. But you do have to… slow down, get off the drugs, get off automatic pilot. And by “drugs” I mean… anything that keeps you prisoner — whatever the addiction is. Don’t you want to know your own life? Instead of just running from thing to thing, place to place, person to person?
Gonna draw one card for the folks under their Chiron Return:
Ooooohhh King of Swords. Honesty. What is just. What is fair. UNFLINCHING. Because you didn’t get it then. You didn’t get what was just and fair. And this is a LOGIC King. No blindfold here, no emotional sway. He sees oh yes he sees. Kings (says Mary K. Greer) are SHAMANS. This King has come to SAVE YOU. It’s your own mind.