How conscious can you be?
How conscious are you willing to be?
How hard is it for you? In the moment? To calm the fuck down?
You will look back on this time with regret unless you STOP.
Stop sleepwalking through your life.
Who is around you? What is around you? You think these are accidents? Accidental people? Paper dolls? Mistakes? Even your problems, your tests, your joys, the sex you had last night? All of it. All of it.
Things change in an instant. Diagnosis. Death. All of it. All of it.
Dinner’s in the oven. The cats are sleeping. Maria McKee singing her heart out 🙂
Business as usual but nothing will ever be the same again for me. And THIS IS GOOD. Sometimes I feel overwhelmed with love. And this is not a bad thing. This is Venus in the 12th House. Love without limits. This love is not polite. This is a messy Moon Pluto conjunction in the 1st House. This is me. And this feeling is, yes, accompanied by terror because we are born alone and die alone but I can’t remember the last time (maybe during auditions for a short play of mine) that I said to myself or anyone:
I AM HAPPY TO BE ALIVE.
I wish you the same.
So today I had a wicked fight with someone and then I noticed my wicked transits including the Sun opposing my natal 8th House Chiron and… so much is swirling in my mind about relationships these days, and intimacy, that I don’t know where to begin but I tell you what: the class I’m going to be doing this month is going to touch all over this topic, all over it. MARS IN LIBRA fights for love and the class is a Grand Cross class: Mars, Jupiter, Pluto, Uranus BUT FOR NOW WE MUST CONCERN OURSELVES WITH THE NEW MOON IN LIBRA TOMORROW AND HOW THIS IS A CHANCE TO MAKE THINGS RIGHT AND TO TRUST THE SUDDEN REVELATION AND THE SHOCKING NEWS AND THE OTHER PERSON. TRUST THE OTHER PERSON. ACTUALLY SEE THE OTHER PERSON.
You can decide to stop ruining everything. But then you have to follow through. Decide what to do to follow through.
New Moon and Sun in Libra (PEACE AND LOVE) squaring (jamming, fucking with, disturbing, destroying) Pluto and opposing Uranus. Want to throw in bitchy Black Moon Lillith too? And big mouth Jupiter (both in Cancer). SEE YOU CAN END IT ALL OR YOU CAN BE REBORN. SOUND THE ALARM.
Every New Moon is a new chance and this one is a LOVE SUPREME CHANCE (whether it concerns another person, a dream of yours, God, etc).
Are you okay with that? Are you okay with being loved?
It’s that feeling of wanting to fix something so bad and actually being able to fix it: someone dies and comes back from the dead. It’s the thing of movies and novels and mystical stories but that’s the feeling I’m talking about. SECOND CHANCES. Sometimes I still think I’ll run into my father (he’s been gone 20 years) but you know what? I do. I do every day. I look in the mirror every day. To me this is the Ceres story. She loses her daughter. She gets her back. LOST AND FOUND. A LOVE SUPREME.
And I know I know I know we’re talking about a New Moon in Libra but hells bells it’s a Scorpio sky (Venus, North Node, Saturn, MERCURY).
Keep on resurrecting, my friends.