Chiron In The 8th House (again) And The Redemption Of Venus (again) 1


We are talking about Chiron on the message board so I did a Google search and found myself :) this is from the Archives

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Sometimes you have to wait a really long time for what you want, and I don’t know why this is. It’s a mystery larger than I can understand. There’s that word again: the ineffable.

When I think about mystery and longing for something, desire, I remember this song (click here) from Peter Greenaway’s movie, Drowning By Numbers.

It brings me back to my college days and the small art-house theatre, where I saw the movie, and the mad crush I had on the film theory graduate student. He had short dark hair and little glasses. I was an undergraduate and also into film theory, but poetry too.

I don’t know why I chose him or where I met him. He was easily ten years older.  I’ll never forget our first kiss, what a gentleman he was, how he stirred me with his mouth and how respectful, touching nothing. Getting close but not getting there.

What did I know of love? What did I know of men?

All I had to offer was my sex, my 8th House, my silence. I mean, I didn’t know how to talk (Mercury in Cancer) and the 8th House is Scorpio is quiet intensity brooding sexual. I was all locked up. Sex was my communication, my struggle to speak, to be intimate. But… it doesn’t work that way for men. I mean, I gave it away. I only wanted to be close. It never worked.

As I was waiting for a train today and finishing this post I also began to think aboutVenus in the 12th House (a jailer just like Chiron) and how after half a lifetime ofVenus 12th House issues, the Get Out Of Jail Free Card from Monopoly should just… appear in your hand, as you step out into the new day.


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One thought on “Chiron In The 8th House (again) And The Redemption Of Venus (again)

  • M. del Rin

    Well… Chiron is on my 8th. H. at a star of staring at stars, so I try to study them (astrologically wise). And Venus in conj. Sun on the 10th, in conj. with Sedna… so just think how I gave love away, falling in love -eternal one- with those who were not prepared to give any… plutos.

    I ended out subducted, of course. And all confused: how did i get here, when I wanted REAL, TANTRIC love?

    Well! I never asked first! (Mhhh!) I never listened first! (aries: impulsive).

    And the pain!

    R.